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im back

2009-05-11T23:14:00.003+08:00

im writing this with a heavy heart

i have already completed my final project everything is done and nothing can be changed.

i put in my best efforts i could find during the past few weeks of hectic schedule.

i tried my best to be a diligent student although there were times when i became a tad lazy and decided to lay in bed for a while because i always sleep ard 5am. or not at all.

this is very different from my diploma fyp. diploma fyp was a discouraged last min piece of work because of an ugly fucking bitch who should quit teaching for life because her ruptured face and useless mind kinda kills every potential.

but soon i found a second chance and i hope i made very good use of this second chance that i received.

altho i have to admit laziness did kick in time and time again during this ba course. but im glad that i have my love who waits for me almost every night without fail so that i wont feel so alone deep in the night while i battle with my work.

i have to admit i feel secured knowing that somebody is there even if i feel fucking shitty half way thru because the world just seemed so bleek. somebody i could reach out to frm just a simple phone call.

but now those days r all over. im regaining freedom like how a hatchling is growing wings.

i love the smell of serenity and fresh air. i cannot wait till this week is over and leave my mind alone from design.

loving design and doing design are two very different things.

i love the process but the production will cost u so much not only financially but also physically and mentally. for those who are thinking of taking up design on a general scale. think TWICE.

its nt as easy as it seems. its tougher then plain studying. because it doesnt require u memorise anyting or remember any formula yes but its a mind fucking process that can drown u till u die.

so all designers naturally have a stronger mind then anyone i believe. and now when i look at diploma work. i think its CRAP. i look back and i think my work is crap now. only then did i realise how much this has changed me and my perception of beauty.

to be a designer u have to be able to withstand sleepless nights of not only a day or two but sometimes a week. i sleep a total of 10hrs in a week mind u.

be prepared to age faster then your frens because of your stress level and amount of thinking u have to do.

but i think diploma days r pretty easy to get by for me. i always did work in a snap with the fastest way out and could score sometimes a pretty decent grade and sometimes just a pass. not very proud of it but because i realise that this ba has made me so much stronger both as a person and a designer.

tmr is my final presentation. my work is all set up now waiting to be assessed.

if any fucker were to steal my stash, you WILL burn in hell and die a terrible death like probably getting run over by a monster truck after falling to half ur death from a 40 storey building.

if u still dont die, i guess god has smth else more interesting for you lined up. probably bed ridden for the rest of your life.

yes, so if u steal my stuff. u know wat will happen to u!!!!!

haha

for now wish me all the best!!! and good luck to myself! i hope the lecturers will be in a gooooood mood tmr!

now the first thing i would wanna do after my assessments:

meet up with my love because i have so much to share with him and i hope i can spend as much time as i can with him before he goes to NS ): its starting to take effect on me now. shit. i dun wanna be alone. but its ok i will look forwrd to every sat then. be positive!!!

buy a mothers day present for my mom because she has been chauffering me ard with nt alot of complaints. lol

get a new tank for my tortoises coz they r growing too big and are escaping ALL THE TIME. just wait til happy getchu!!! see if u still wanna escape!!!

get a standing wheel for fishball and pretty, btw those r the names i gave the hammies. fishball is obviously the fat one. she is fat n lazy quite dirty too-.-

consider getting a rabbit twice and beg my mother about it HAHA

shower more love on happy for keeping me company every night too! he is still the master of the house!

keep myself lookin good coz im crap now.-.-

tongiht i shall prepare my thoughts for tmr

good night! time to choose my outfit

the day we went to check out the rabbits three weeks ago.

doggie ace

2009-03-06T00:35:00.001+08:00

hey

pls forward this email ard!

this puppy is a cross breed female most likely lost or abandoned. collar still on but the "ace of spades" dog tag is gone. formally discovered on dog before captured by spca. tag was known to be made from Belgium from neighborhood kind souls who fed her.

got captured two days ago and if she is not claimed, she might be put to sleep!

landed property or private housing only.

pls call up SPCA at 62875355 and this is her(the dog aka ace) reference number: 79399

pls help! i really dont want her to be put to sleep.

she was found lost at telok blangah drive. very friendly and seemingly sad and looking for a home!

pls help!

thanks a ton!!

Queena

21

2009-02-17T02:11:00.001+08:00

im officially 21

but im busy sketching and doing my work. how nice~

i should have enjoyed my 21st if i didnt take this bloody bachelors degree!!
next year iw ill celebrate my 22nd at macdonalds ok!! i wil TRY to plan in advance HAHAHA

happy meall

im lovin it

ok tt is all off to bed sick of sketching.

blaaa

happy valentine's!

2009-02-16T00:30:00.002+08:00

how was yours?

mine was pretty out of the ordinary because we went up mount faber by foot!!!! well its ultra near honeys home so yeah... the whole hort park area and the bridges, seats and walks were surprisingly packed with throngs of couples and groups. well nt ultra pack but extraordinarily crowded for such a ulu place. Enjoyed the nice walk in the night and spending good quality time with my honey while munching away on snacks. haha he was really well prepared. we were like the only couple there looking as if we were picnicing lol!!

it was just a casual date:D had dinner at thai accent at vivo!the tom yum soup is superb! cant be compared to thai express. its wayyy better. yumss then finally went to buy the two design books from page one. thank god its on sale!!! wohooo like at last! it was gifts from dear. i gotta think next wat i want. the books costs about 100 altogether after discount! imagine before??? anyhows had some pictures posted on mog and so yeah post it here as well.

atop mount faber!!
celebrated my 21st with a group of friends. will post the group shot once i get it. thanks dear for the cake! tho we were all very stuffed alr.. with the buffet dinner. yes ate LOTSSSS it was buffet at swissotel stamford.
went to paulaner afters (: that is all for now!

ohoh i receieved pretty wonderful gifts that were out of the ordinary which includes a pair of cute hamsters and more. will post pix of gifts up once i receive them all :P

off to do my stupid visual diary for the europe trip bla!

~~

women

2009-02-10T01:45:00.002+08:00

today i stayed at home, drew and drew. what women really is? you tell me.

took these last thursday while i was out with wency.

im off for the night i don't know why my mind keeps longing for a break. but it just doesn't seem to be leaving its home for a nice vacation. vacations never were long enough.

i think my love for design has grown, but doing what i like that is. if it isnt, it is like a living hell.

things

2009-02-08T23:09:00.002+08:00

my eyelids are heavy and my sockets feels tired and hot

headache is the worse thing ever! i'd rather exchange that for stomach cramps. because i cant think straight or come out wit anything.

my birthday is really approaching and i intend to celebrate it on the 13th. however, i m nt prepared at all and i m only 1week away.

here is my wishlist to help u out a little, they are not in order of important and relevance:

a new watch perhaps?
my cyma is out of battery. but smth new is always nice. guess watches are nt really my kinda thing tho. so pls.

a keyboard protector for my 13"mac book because mine is torn! wheelock doesnt have it!! OOS!!

a wallet. i like the one at gucci but 400plus!should i squander more money? hmmm but agnes b is nice too! i dun like bulky wallets. i like light small slim ones. hate rectagulars and large ones. honey say he'd get a wallet for me but hmmmm is that the best present i can ask from him? haha

i'd love a make up brush set from mac. but nahhh just a WANT not a NEED.

more lovely beads!! i dun like shell beads btw. neither do i like glass beads. check out MOG for my liking of beads :P

revamp my bloody messy pathetic room

a nice lap top leather bag with a handle.again i like slim and compact stuff. gotta look good too. nth flowery and stupid looking. but i love spongebob tho. ha

its been a REALLY long time since i received FLOWERS. what is it like to receive a MEGA huge bouquet? hmmm i wonder

how about bobbie brown gel liner? or was it liquid lotsa ppl r raving about it. but im too lazy to go get it. coz i dun ahve a brush haha!

i'd love these two books u can get at page one or kino if u ahve a discount card:

great britain editorial design

page editorial design

i cant exaclty remember the title but yeah agar agar lol

also i love some nice illustration books! esp women related. very relevent to my fyp ok.

an air ticket to london. HAHA

that is all i can think of now. blaaa

i shall go get some work done.

but before that i'd like to list down some impt things in my life. i dunno y suddenly i feel tt way. it was only when i spent alot more time with Happy lately.

my family- tho yes they can get really annoying. but still i love my home!!!

my dear vince chng. my dad keeps asking if i am gonna marry u for sure.and when do i plan to get married.OMG I AM ONLY GOING TO TURN 21 NOT 30 ... parents -.-

my happy boyyyy- if happy were to die. i think i wil go into depression. no other dog can replace this super dog of mine.

school work and design- it can practically overtake my life and even MOG design ideas when i set my mind on thinking and finding what i want for my fyp.

MOG- mistress of glam is a brand i spent so much effort in building it up. it is liek the fruit of my labour. i can never give it up i guess. and i love to design jewelry with such materials that are not even meant to be together.

my friends- hey i love small warm circle of friends. ((:

that is all for now. did u survive this long entry with no pictures?

rants

2009-02-03T00:43:00.003+08:00

amsterdam. near rijik musuem. i cant rem how to spell it. its dutch mind u if u re laugung at me right now.
at balcony last sat after dinner with family and honey bunny.

i fucking tried t upload a picture but blogger just suck to the core(the pix r up now after i wrote these)

fuck

i am trying to do my work. i cannot settle on anything

i feel so lost and depressed about work

how!!

i couldnt find much a inspiration at the library today because the fucking book tt i wanted was nt available

ccb

however i reserved it at kino taka tmr. i will go get it. The Vagina Monologues by Eve Ensler. very inpsiring book.

i hope it is the fucking right one or else i m gonna freaking kill the sales girl/guy!!!

today at the library was not exactly fruitful because 3/4 OF THE BOOKS I WANTED WAS UNDER THE REPOSITORY WHICH WILL TAKE A WEEK FOR ME TO GET THEM!FUCKING IDIOTIC. . i searched for materials to get the perfect role model. i still cannot digest it now. who is a perfect female role model to you?

well for sure i know its not the below:

mariah carey. too slutty
madonna. freaky shit
britney spears. holy cow, was that your cow which got lost last summer?
dita von teese . i really like her. but it is personal
waris dirie. she is nice but seem like a drug addict
tyra banks. kinda boring
hillary duff. lost teenager

i think enough of my nonsense.

tts all. let me rotttt..

2009-01-28T17:02:00.002+08:00

iam sick!!! down with a fever and flu. so with nothing to do because im feeling so floatyyyy and i cant slp because my dad and his mahjong session is making one hell of a noise. i decided to filter some photos i took the past few days during the special special cny. all these were taken on the first day. yawns. randomness. love my shoes, will show them here someday when im more free haha my three oxfords and a pair of flats. two from london two from sg. woohooooo

took this on the car. yawns feeling alr kinda sick ...-.-

my sis took that. feeling sickkkkkk

so after all that visiting in the day, we got home to welcome alll the guests. all the family members will gather at my place on the first day usually. so my sis and i got really bored so we decided with play with my macbook's camera. :P

soon i got sick of looking pretty and tidy. we started monkeying ard! look i may be turning 21 soon! but!im still felxible and adventurous!ahahahha

ahahaha ok really stupid i know but its fun!

that is all for now. i feel groggy and floaty and zonked out. hahaha like in another zone. my hearing seems kinda echo-y ...-.-

that is all folks. sorry if i didnt invite u to my place. because im really too sick to do so. )):

regulars reunion dinner soon k!

grumbles

2009-01-12T02:22:00.004+08:00

blogger really eats up the rich colour in my photos fuck. but im too lazy to log into my photobucket. so fuck it

here are some random photos because i was feeling random and really moody.

now im still moody

tmr there is school!! sucky how sucky is that

ugh work still incomplete. but screw it. will complete it by this week! sigh

been hanging out with regulars quite regularly really, kinda fun:D some pix from london etc random too

covent garden ice skating ring. owned by tiffany and co. so lovely. if u enlarge it u can see a person lying flat there on the right. poor thing!

design museum near the ondon bridge tube station

london bridge. wat LOVELY weather... grey and dull and raining all day. sigh plus cold. very bad

van gogh musuem at amsterdam. love the colours.

blogger really suck i tried to upload more pix but it is screwing up as usual.

blogger YOU SUCK.

xmas gathering with regulars. fagodeddy son and i. he looks so big. hovering above me. and i wasnt even like touching him. watever tall ppl~

ilikeit. favourite few shots of myself of the night... haha

at forum.

i miss my dear so much )): those were taken on xmas eve. had a lovely one with him:D

hugs

he is the only thought that perk me up now to be honest. every other thing is like ZOMG

I WANNA DIE LA i hate this feeling of school-the endless dark little pit that makes u feel worthless when the work load gets thrown at u like ure an invisible endless little thrash bin.

fuck u all!!! ok take that back kcuf u lla

ahahaha (self console and entertainment)

i miss u my loveeee.. wo de ai reennnnn

bla time for bed.

mayb a bit of pet society first to de stress my mind from all these crap.. hutssyyy

yawns

2008-12-23T01:39:00.010+08:00

yawnsss finally moved my arse to go edit some photos i took from london. these are like less then a quarter of wat i took. too lazy to edit all of it. will have more soooooonnn

for now let the pictures speak to u.

touched down at heathrow. classmate's Mongolian hat which we all couldnt stop toying with!

their "mrt" platform
on the train with my classmate

the stretch of houses we live beside. compare it to our hdb. WTF IS HDB?

ace hotel. its more like a hostel. :S

v&a. that is my japunnn fren mio

this was taken after touch down at train station. and that is defintely nt my luggage borrowed it to take a photo because it matched my outfit. AHHAAH
brit museum

v&a
buckingham
random.

british musuem.

british museum

some shots taken from the last gathering last sat with the regulars at minds. too lazy to load all bla

zoukout upon touching down on 13th. stole it from fb. haha

met up with my love on sunday again to ahve dinner at his grandma's. love this shot. wearing his jacket.

that is all for now. good night

back

2008-12-15T01:06:00.003+08:00

ok short note

i touched down ytd(13dec) 542pm and got off the nt so comfy sq plane which i got on from paris to dfs to purchase the alcohol and then first thing was to see my dear and to throw him a hug!

headed off to zouk out aft dining home with family and dear.

then got home at 6am packed a bit slept woke up at 5pm

my trip was great if u asked me to measure it on a general scale

all right pix soonest

shopped quite a big

all hail primark!!!!

damn

2008-11-22T16:25:00.013+08:00

hello im flying tmr night and im really not lookin forward to it because im going not for a holiday with my family but with my classmates means i got alot more things to worry about :D

DAMN. all right as promised picturesss timeee. this is a very VERY heavy post. so beware

all right remember the picture below?yes further updates of the events since then. i think i missed out on som but yeah watever.
im really tired from all the work n submission. my mind has yet to ahve a good rest since the moment i woke up today because i had to bead and stuff. what a life. but i enjoy doing it:D i love to create pretty things~

mich and i before i got possessed

group vain shot~
so halloweeny

birthday girl. that night we had harry potter, amy winehouse, wednesday, james bond, neo from matrix, the carpenter, mr bean, queen of sparta, rihanna and that is all i could remember and of course me-emily the strange.

after the dinner rushed off for drinks at jazzzz with the silly ones.

it was to celebrate my bastard son's birthday. forgot to take pictures of the stuff we got him i got him a personal gift from agnes b. be grateful asshole.

then it was zouk hmmm last weekend. haha dinner at jacks at gw first. thanks to son for the 50%

wen and i. hmmm

gin u look drunk although u only had a gintonic at this point of time. hahaha u need proper make up.

ggroup shot!

fyi i didnt air brush my skin to look like that its natural. its the foundation from mac:D sheer is good dun cake up, or u'd look patchy.

ok if u realise at a certain point i m too lazy to photoshop the colours of the pix to achvieve the coloured effect. so watever~i just plonked the pix in haha

candid. hha looking bewitched. met dear ytd after i submitted my thesis of 11k words HA!!! met up with herry for coffee and the sim card toooo thanks and sorry i cant attend ur bday celebration today :S dun hate me laaaa. TSK

thai express coz i didnt ahve any appetite and thought tom yum soup would help but no): i regained appetite after watchin the chihuahua movie, had nydc haha. sooooo cute! gotta watch it. reminds me soooo much of happy ahah when he was a puppy, he looked exactly lyk that!! now he is just left with the same head but humongous body for a chh.
tired tired me. i think tmr night on the plane would be a good time to stone n think of nth. haha no! gotta think of the visual diary. BLA

i will pack it tonight or tmr the clothes are almost done im bringing about ten sets. i m not gonna touch the washin machine.

that is all for now

i hope u have enjoyed feasting your eyes on my frens and i. its time to go meet my sugar pie.

bimbotic kisses***

ps: id be back dec 14th at 6. no zouk out for me ):

~

2008-11-16T22:22:00.003+08:00

ok so im stil alive and ass kickin'. i feel very very tired tho. i still have a 9k words dissertation to complete. sigh!! right i survived day of death and so after suffering so much i decided to pamper myself. finally gotten my lip balm supply from elizabeth arden and a very pretty shade of lip gloss from shu uemura. dior didnt had what i wanted ): then i too pampared myself with a gucci bag. yay~ was soooo happy. and then headed off for dinner at jacks at gw with the rest and then to zouk. but we were hanging at phuture the most. not a fantastic night but i had quite some bit of fun. haha we should go together again peeps when im back!! im too lazy to load all the pix so here are a few FIRST. i will have more once i ahve completed my dissertation. fuck.

i'd say we all have goood complexion! met up with dear and had supper together at spize after zouk. got home at 4am. slept at 5am. but fuck! i was woken up prematurely again by my annoying father chanting and shouting. really spoilt my day and mood for work. feel so tired and my eyes r burning hot.

argh~

2008-11-06T19:50:00.002+08:00

i feel miserable. why am i living in such misery? the course is screwing me up. i feel sick, in fact i AM sick.how fucked up is that when u have so many submissions?i know im almost there but i just cant help it. i wish i had the time to have fun and party more instead of being a pathetic student leading a pathetic life.

being a designer is not easy and good god, can u believe that im actually loving it?

screw the world. the stupid amex sup card hasnt returned with the thumbs up. citibank got back even faster! and for that i gotta foot my own freaking bill.

i miss my love~ miss his hug and warmth, n his awful odour that if often mixed with tobacco. or when he is just awake. i miss the times lazing at his house doing nothing but sleep. and enjoy the air of lethargy lingering. i know that may sound lazy but i hardly get to live such moments ok! so shut the fuck up slut! sorry but excuse me for the foul language as im evilly stressed up and i just need to let the angst out.

so shut up and keep the fucking comments to yourself if u have anything mean to say.

here is a picture two weeks ago. during number two's 21st. will have tons of peeeeektures uploaded once i bypass the day of death on monday~

till then~

picture speaks a thousand words

2008-10-12T17:43:00.006+08:00

but what if those words were lies?

anyhows boring sunday, havent started on school work. feeling lethargic as ever. but am glad the headache is gone. went to a very lovely place ytd to celebrate lovely bianca's birthday!here theme was the oscar awards -.- lol so i dug out my old prom dress although i borrowes from wency too but felt tt it was kinda too formal. haha so let these pictures talk to u.
that's bianca! got to know her to through beading and soon we became frens and shared all sorts of hmm i cant really say secrets but yaaa lol etc tog. haha she is funny to speak to. stil have a few more pix with her tho. it was held at keppel marina, very romantic place.

after which left for clarke quay with honey for some supper and soon we decided to camwhore. LOL really funny! some pictures are censored so... just feast your eyes on these haha

this collage is quite funny haha we were playing with the indi shots. haha he look like some ck ad! haha we kept a lookout and only started posing when there was no one. :O didnt really like my hair actually .the auntie at the salon cut a little too short n made it kinda curly. i wanted huge volume curls actually ):

candid shot that honey took of me while i was talking away. -.- i liked my make up too. leart how to fully utilize the foudnation i got. but i need a matt one now damn
ha! this! angel from hell

that is all for now! off to do some under garment shopping with my mom and then i will come back home to do some work.PROMISE

love is sleeping ):

life still as it is

2008-10-11T02:25:00.005+08:00

finally im blogging. because i cant sleep !ugh
it has been yet another tiring week of school with very little sleep that i hate. pfftt

i wish i had a longer holiday before i started this degree course. my brain feel so exhausted! damn. anyhows i was bored a couple a days ago and so i decided to camwhore. but DAMN. my camera ran outta battery. so NVM. i recalled that i am using a macbook now and there is an inbuilt camera! YAY. so pls if u feel sick looking at me. GET OUT LA TSK!!

lets begin with ME. muahaha

trying to act chio la. but i end up looking witchy and evil. TSK i think blogger sucks. it changes the colour slightly.
then i decided that it was boring to camwhore ALONE so i needed an accessory. so there came happy, so i grabbed him and tadah! haha so cute aint he!i love the shot whereby his tongue is stuck out. these were taken on tuesday after shopping with wency the entire afternoon and then after which, headed off to smith street for research and observation.

then this set was taken yesterday after the opening at old school mt sophia. tried on my new mac foundation and mineral eye shadow. love the eye shadow! the foundation is very glowy but i think its nt good for the eye area hmmm. anyhows it stil made my face pretty flawless from afar. haha. happy is so cute! i woke him from his sleep to camwhore. he looks quite sian. i know i look retarded in some shots. cannot help it la . he loves it when i cuddle and kiss him if u didnt know btw~ lol

then spent my entire day at dears palce today being a pig. ate chix rice til damn full n took a long nap. smth that i have not done in the longest time. haha honey u mus be wondering where i got these pix. haha! but i like them. both cute n sexy in one :P ok tts just my opinion

tt is all for now. must try to sleep.

yawns

life

2008-09-29T13:26:00.002+08:00

my blog always gave off this very quiet feeling doesnt it.

it doesnt have much noise nor colours added to it. its pretty dull in fact.

but however i really do love tranquility in life. i can never imagine how popular ppl live their lives.

its so tiring.

stil trying to think hard for my branding, i wonder what is wrong with me now. i always feel lethargic. i need to feel rejuvenated.

goood god~ ugh

exhaustion

2008-09-25T23:34:00.006+08:00

im so exhausted with school!!

its endless.

cant seem to find my source of motivation. and im talking bout a strong one

boredom

2008-09-13T23:00:00.005+08:00

i think my sister is laying GOLD eggs in the toilet thats why she is taking so freaking long. n tts why im blogging with i took today! no proper camera all from my macbook n hp. kinda like the raw feeling. hmmm i miss love.

damn it if my sister is really laying gold eggs, she better let me have them! i m waiting for the bathroom for almost an hour and im rotting alr!!!!(altho there is more then one bathroom)

enjoy the photos. FEAST your eyes!!! :P

see im wearing smth

new pliers pls!

2008-09-13T14:12:00.004+08:00

i want new pliers. anybody?

sometimes i think u look like an empty vessel with just a mouth and brain that shoots off without making any sense. oh but what's not? i already called you an empty vessel. empty vessel makes the most noise.

not directing that at anyone but just a reminder sometimes.

hmmm...

found this pic randomly thru my numerous messy photo album on my multiple computers. hmmmm i love tanning very much still. but i think my stark fairness now suits my ghostly hair more HAHA!

hmmm

2008-09-09T15:03:00.004+08:00

picture as promised. really tired and i wanna relax. im still thinking abou pi pa gao or colgate. im so lost suddenly.

photoshopped the pictures alil bit with some which they call the "lomo" effect. which i think lomo is not just this.

help somebody! i need ideas!

thats the bag i got from optt shop. love the prints inside.
happy birthday gin. steal all the pictures, i know you will :P

life

2008-09-07T16:17:00.002+08:00

tired

went out ytd with the rest. pictures soooon. lotsa school work waiting for me.

8Q at SAM

2008-09-05T01:40:00.002+08:00

another of my favourite exhibit. storeroom
had dinner at aston cathay. bought a bad at dejavu vintage too . really happy

that is my favourite exhibit out of all. like such stitch work. if only i can be as neat.just wanted to post some pictures. and yes gin i photoshopped u. look nice rightttt hahaha

ok i m tired
off to bed now

yawns~

loves

2008-09-03T01:12:00.002+08:00

i think im so tired my body is telling me to sleep but however i cannot): anyways today is a special day. happy 26th month darling~

off to bead for tmr!!!! im so hardworking right.

ps/ bought a new macbook and blogging on it. feeeeeellllssss gooooodddddd hahah

2008-08-30T15:34:00.003+08:00

you may wonder why a picture of that. yes its a crow. supposedly for my work, but decided not to use it anymore. took it ard my sch area ard evening time? yeahh

a weird tingling sensation tickled my stomach running up to my throat when it flew over me. It was like as if my heart was going to take a hard hard leap and escape from my body. I felt my ears turn cold and me automatically shrinking away. Perhaps it was really something to fear of instead of being admired.

A Murder Of Crows.

im so tired of everything. i wish i can relax and just do nothing sometimes. I felt unwell again for the whole of this week. t

tired

2008-08-23T22:33:00.003+08:00

im so tired of everything. i dun wan to have my weekend stuck at home trying to do work again when my heart is escaping to the outside.

went out with gin to SAM 8Q to view the exhibits which had its opening two weeks ago which i failed to attend.

will post the pix soon when im free for now i decided to the quiz on gins blog!!!

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

i think i will spend my night resting my mind. my right eye brow has been twitching for days. what is wrong!!!

graduation

2008-08-21T15:16:00.005+08:00

well initially they wanted to refund me $50 thinking tt i did not ask for the photo! I tell you!! the $50 was so tempting but then i decided to just take the picture since i didn't take much pictures that day and well this is professionally taken. once in a life time right. next yr diff gown alr. next yr must look more gorgeous also HAHA. i look awkward here. so UGLY!!! so FAT!!! like pregnant!!! stupid robe. n the green is omg. pungent against the black. HOWEVER my complexion look flawless haha and i don't use make up base or foundation or whatever. just sheer layer of loose powder. n obviously they did not photoshop me if not why am i still so fat -.- so yeah tts the ONLY thing i was happy about :P oh but pls dun try to focus on my eyebags -.-

that is all for now im so sleeppyyy. going to catch up on sleep before meeting my darling

convocation

2008-08-16T20:07:00.005+08:00

hola!!! just had my convocation today. smth that totally slipped my mind until i received constant reminders from my friends. zzz lets start off with whats happening this week. im really tired now and my brain is half aslp while my eyes are half closed while im typing right here as of now. my dad is talking to himself while watching the Olympics too. and that really annoys me.

monday met up with love for dinner after school. and i just couldn't resist putting up this very cute picture of him. since im blogging from my lap top and this picture is here. love the cute smile and sexy body hahaha:P
on thursday went over to love's house to slack and sleep after school and the collection of the fugly gown.
met son on friday for dinner at jacks bras basah before he headed off to a place with flooded with bl****.
he look gay. shakes head*
then today! convocation at SCH. nt my first time there. been there a couple of times for concerts and syfs. didn't change much. but my first time sitting below. i hope next year's convocation would be somewhere else bigger .
wore the $200 worth Armani top my love bought me for my first x mas gift in dec 2006 and my $229 worth april 77. expensive outfit day ey~well i love the top but its just too formal to wear out so often ): i will have to find a solution to it!!

everything was very last min for me coz i was busy with school!!! collected my gown only on thursday and had it tidied last night. my top was only ironed this morning coz its been hanging in my wardrobe for too longggg. i looked ghostly somehow when i was on stage according to my parents coz the robe was black and my hair was dark and long. with the smokey eye make up its quite hard to define if i was a normal average girl at all. perhaps another weird design freak to some others. i look stupid i know. the robe is ugly. the green is pFFTT. and its so HUGE. where are my hands!!!!i hope the picture taken when i was on stage looks good or i will look awful and have wasted $50(day light robbery) for one picture!!
last but nt least my parents and i. didnt take much pictures with my frens. coz it was so fucking crowded and everyone was swamping ard the horrible buffet. i didnt even bothered to eat. was quite pissed too coz i couldnt find my parents amidst the chaos. RAWR. so i kinda look gloomy pfft. well i hope next year i wont be gloomy again!! and the gown looks much better too!!! plus there would be a hat by then hehehe

till then~

PS/ Lika i know u r secretly stalking me now!! hahaha :P

pictures

2008-08-10T00:49:00.005+08:00

finally pictures. edited them while doing work. sigh so much to do yet so little time. i need to worry about nth else but my sch work!!! too lazy to talk much.let the pictures paint u a thousand words! starting with events weeks ago.

met up with 2 and 3 for dinner tog with yang yang! marche vivo then coffee at pacific coffee watever. gossiped and rubbish-ed for the night. met them ard mid july before sch started. i was so much happier looking coz i slept alot!!!haha

4 of us
yang yang and i!
act cute no. 3 -.-
met amos last last friday at vivo to fix my phone.
met honey last fruday aft my long day at sch for the symposium. took this with my new lg secret hp. colour corrected it of course. haha

i looked really tired. well i was!was in sch from 930 to 630!then met dear at marina. haha and dear right there! i like his tight pants which is not shown here:P
then met up with wenn n yh ytd for dinner kinda last min. bought a vintage cute bag from oppt at heeren. for only $20!!they r having mega sale there.everything is so cheap cheap cheap! so must go k? haha wanted to tell dear bout my retial therapy but he was so busy working. ):

tts all!~ till then!

life

2008-08-07T21:21:00.003+08:00

i was bored and i was looking thru my friendster for some of the oldest pictures since i was 16? or mayb 15. then i chanced upon this really old picture taken at vch right after our performance. i was such a happy person!youthful and everything before i stepped into the crazy world of design haha tho i love design :P and well i love music too. altho my trumpet is well kept in its case right below my feet now as my foot rest. haha i really miss sectionals and playing with the rest. i really wished i had continued after that and mayb realise my dream some day? my dream was always to be a musican and goal a designer. both of course gotta be successful. haha but i know im far away from my dream now. much much more compared to 4 yrs ago. but however disappointment is the word now to describe my sentiments towards the band.

anyways i was going thru my photobucket and found this old picture of honey and i:o so cute la haha tt was during our first few months haha i miss those braids :P

if i dun remember wrogly this was taken via my hp? haha yeah n no photoshopping done besides litting up the picture. it was at mac cafe at lido :P

that is all for now. just decided to blog because memories were gushing through my mind when i saw that pic and stumbled upon so many others :P

my day ended on a horrifying note

2008-08-05T21:29:00.003+08:00

hello everyone
i know i haven't blogged in a million years time because i m really busy with school trying to catch up on sleep at the same time so that i would recover quickly from my stupid cold which has already lasted me for a week so far!

with work piling on everyday i really feel so stressed up and shitty sometimes i just wanna GIVE UP. but well weirdly i didnt. i guess sub consciously there is smth there holding on. i wish sometimes that i had a different brain so that i can think differently sometimes. and feel wat others feel.

attended a two day symposium the last weekend which sucked alot of energy out of me but at the same time i sponged in pretty much stuff especially on the second day when i was less distracted and awake from suffecient sleep. i like the korean guys whose name is pretty hard to spell talking bout liquid and fluidity. the grey zone and also the interaction between you and the liquid also showing this installation art of somebody swimming.

coincidentally this topic of his was related to my phrase for my typography project that i came up with BEFORE the symposium!so i paid more attention to his talk altho my nds was switched on. haha

enough bout that, i dont think any of u know wat im talking bout because the readers of my blog are usually not my class :P

the reason for the title of this post is because, while i was taking the short cut home today, from the back route out i walked past the sculpture workshop garage with lotsa trees. and suddenly smth caught the sides of my eye. it was a figure of actual scale, rahter fat too. It shocked the living shit out of me!! plus it was so dark and the damn thing was hiding behind the bushes!i thought it was a ghost or smth!! talking bout the 7th month now. tsk . so errie. later did i know that it was just a fucking sculpture la. -.- stupid fat brown shit. whoever that put it there is damn evil ahaha

that is all for today! will have pictures up soonest!

christian the lion

2008-07-26T17:43:00.002+08:00

very super fucking ultra damn touching video!!! made me wanna cry!

animals loyalty, unbelievable.

hope that you will enjoy it. its the most beautiful thing i ahve seen! made my tired day so much more awake now.

school has been well all right. i will load the photos up asap!(:

photos

2008-07-16T19:26:00.021+08:00

so peeektures are all finally up. haven't been feeling very good late.y headache attack period again. ppfftt. weather hasnt been very helpful either. went back to school for orientation ytd to collect my stupid student card which they spelt wrongly AGAIN. fucking idiots.

somehow when i stepped back into the campus i didnt feel too stressed up after all and felt pretty ready. but when i received the time table. i felt crappy again. secretly wondering when is all these gonna end again?

sometimes i know im quite self absorbed and don't spare too much a thought for others. im sorry if that ever happened to you. sometimes its just like that. i cant control it you know? i am like that. but trying ahrd to be a good girl now of course.

i guess this weekend is gonna be time for me to reflect and myself ready for this big challenge and question mark ahead of me. pfftt... writing etc not of any problem to me but i must say i needta brush up onmy english coz i ahve lost touch with it a pretty long time ago.

enough of those dreadful stuff, here are the photos dating back to two weeks ago!

dinner at jacks gw with son, gin and wen.

then it was to eski to finish up our chivas.

love this photo. it was captured accidentally:P

bus ride to eski haha wrong order too lazy to re shuffle.

then it was bmcb on sunday

met up with dear on thurs for movies. caught hancock.not a very amazing show after all. no true villian and not enough climax.

typed the wrong date in this picture. arh its 10.07.08 haha
starbucks on sat with wenn and yh.
the reall artistic shot is ehre yh hahaha the usual untidiness of a cafe.find it nostalgic in a way
that is all for now. tmr wen wants to come over to practice on the piano n then meeting mikko, mischa and yang yang for dinner

lethargic

2008-07-12T00:00:00.003+08:00

im blogging because i actually had so much to say but it all slipped my mind the moment i wake up every morning or should i say afternoon.

i m a very forgetful person. sometimes to the extend of being called a scatter brain. but well not too bad i used to be quite good at remembering things but as i grew older i feel that my brain seem to become lazier. i tend to shut off very fast. i can ask a person the same thing more then five times.

im really tired. i dont know why. my eyes are like burning. maybe its because i been rubbing it too much. bad habit really.

today went to bugis haji ctown then home. had yh with me. ok not too adventurous. but hes quite funny. he wants to bead too! start a mens line. like seriously.... yh get a life. stop being a sissy ok. u need to be more man! reading arena more doesnt make u man enough! ahaha kidding...

now im trying very hard to recall what i wanted to blog about but nothing seem to be reaching my mind.

lets just start with sch. its starting in a weeks time and HOLY SHIT im stil NOT READY? my brain is blank. mentally still exhuasted instead of feeling refreshed and ready to go and fight that one year of shit ass and kick one hell of a ass. no. i feel like this........ dead

i wanna do vogue i wanna do cool i wanna splashes of colour loud daring bold! but do i ahve the chance?

last weekend was great spent it with darling and regulars. dinner plus eski. then sat with darling and sun bmcb n thai express

bmcb was crap. disappointed. soft. not tuned. french horns cracking sounded like a mice quivering. cant hear the trumpets. no high notes were hit. tickets were luckily free for me.tt was what wen and i was saying if it wasnt free n its ten bucks. HELL we wont go laaa.the only song that sounded OK was yorkshire. and do re mi fucking simple song and u can go out of tune sounding like you got super low moral? OMG y heart broken.

not trying to be mean but they need to wake up when the guest band is better then the home band. HOW embarassing is THAT? altho yes guest band wasnt very good either BUT they sneaked their way thru with playing a percussion based piece and that is very smart!

im sorry bmcb but that is just my piece of mind.

enough of rantings.

tata~

365 times two

2008-07-03T15:27:00.007+08:00

Hot sunny not cooling day. was woken up prematurely by my grandfather. tired. hopeing to see my honey later. i really miss him already! spent ytd with him. to celebate our second year in advance coz he has to go home for family dinner tonight. i think i had a bar hair day ytd. hmmm i look like a boy sometimes. hahaha watever. i trimmed my own fringe coz its so fucking irritating.

anyhows lifes been good. trying hard to earn money. but no time to do so. i miss the days whereby i dun have to worry bout such stuff really.

im too tired to think nor type much. pictures time!

took that in moms car. bad hair day. coz i didnt have time to comb!was so late alr. didnt even have time to capture shots of what i made for my love. next time!

wasnt very much of an expensive celebration tho it was suppose to be but due to the heavy rain. we couldnt make our way down to the restraunt behind VCH. had dinner at thai express instead. their black pepper chicken is nice! oh and we caught get smart too. funny show. not a must watch tho.worth 7.50 haha

i was toying with my camera while dear was fiddling with the ds. and guess what! i found this cool function on my digi cam. hmmm not new tho but i dunno how to control the shutter speed u see on a digi cam. its different from an slr. so cool my digi cam can apture such effects!

so we decided to head home at ten plus eleven coz he has work to complete. n fucking shit the side gate of my condo is as usual cranky AGAIN. i gotta walk one fucking big loop to go home instead! and my god! they did not even notify us that its spoilt! until i fucking had to ask the stupid looking security guards why its screwed like them .

enough of crap. tired me. i dun htink i can go jogging today. hahaha

monday perhaps. tmr meeting the regulars to finish up ur bottle. off to bead now. blaa

work

2008-07-01T20:59:00.010+08:00

Ok finally i got the time to blog. after this would be back to beading!
lotsa lotsa shots lol our recent favourite past time :p

life has been so busy but i dunno why?its suppose to be holiday. haha i been really forgetful recently tho. hate it.

haha some of them are really funny.

then had dinner on sunday with family coz it was my stupid sisters birthday.

chinatown and haji ytd! took lotsa pix at chinatown while we were having dessert. haha kinda odd doing it there. coz we were lyk the only three young ppl there haha if you get what i mean.

the world again doesnt revolve around my selfish little heart. too self absorbed sometimes.

pfftt

till then~

anni

2008-06-26T17:09:00.007+08:00

Before i start the entry off i caught very cute shots of happy at my window. his favorite spot. always bugs us to carry him up so that he can see the outside world.((:

Ok finally foudn the time to update after being so busy with the new collection ytd!! i chagned my entire MOG layout n banner too!nice?? click on it to navigate to my brand(:

Right, met wency on tues for lunch and to get some stuff for my love:P secret la!n wency has to tel the whole world what i got -.- all right pictures time!

trying to act cute. cute is never the word for me tsk haha but i think i look like a duck here with that expression -.-
lunch cum dinner. my all time favourite. BA CHOR MEE MEE POK!! chicken wings too rawrs makes me hungry hahaha then it was coffee bean at paragon. well now that i ahve the time i actually photoshopped the pictures together. easier la then to load everything one by one. haha

lastly, my honey and i. i cant believe it, we're hitting our 2nd year so so soon! im in the midst preparing for it! yup! quite excited la actually:P ok then thats all for now. busy busy busy!!!

trio

2008-06-21T23:49:00.010+08:00

tiring day!!! coz i didnt slp well last night. right

hung out with yh and wenn to go shopping for my lashes and wency for her digi cam. we had lunch buffet at suki sushi cine coz its damn cheap. i dun mind going back there tho its nt very nice but cheap! hahaha n nt too bad after all.

been listening to a song by arctic monkeys. smth different. a very different genre. haha damn nice n sweet. got hooked to it the moment those vocals hit my ears. right

here are the photos from ytd.

met yh first at my house bus stop to hop onto 174 tog since we're just one bus stop away... lol

haha blur pic but nice!

wency and i at starbucks. we went to cine taka n wisma then lucky plaza then to paragon then abck to lucky plaza again. lol

best pic of the day. three retards wearing shades indoors at starbucks at 8pm-.- lol n i set the cam on self timer n quickly ran over. we look so funny. lol didnt touch up on this just cropped half the pic off coz i placed the camera too high on a chair opposite us lol.

nicest pic of the evening altho imlike popping out like a floating head...haha

honey and i!well taken some time back. spent time at his palce today from 9am-like 130?i had 2 eggs 2 bread n a packet of chee cheong fun LOL tsk fat fat fat. love u honey.hugs. u were very sweet today.some gestures especially. I NOTICE OK. stop saying tt im violent n not caring yh!! :P

ps: love that dimple of yours sexy

tts all for now. nt exactly sleepy altho my dark eye ring's like FUAH!!!

pix!

2008-06-16T17:16:00.044+08:00

im here with so many pix to show. so its a very image heavy entry. if it hangs your comp, u just have a sucky one. hahaha

anyways this is an entry bout my trip to vietnam and meeting up with the regulars last night.

but before i start off my entry with those here is a thing that amused me:

yes a 60piece in a pack kotex!!wtf! i thought my sister got me diapers instead of sanitary pads! its a huge packet i tel you. lol it amused me :P

my lovely honey and i. really miss him. hes working today. hmmm i like this pic, his lips are so adorable! :p ppl if you find this mushy skip it. lol

right first pic of the trip. clouds.

this is my favourite dish there its call pho prounounced as phur. hahaha love the soup base!its their beef rice noodle.

painting of a map on the wall in their post office. it was a very nice place. nice architectures there by the french when they governed vietnam for hundred of years.

sunset taken at the beach there, they also have an island that resembles sentosa. but of course nt as neat and hmm nice? they are more "vintage" haha

cute puppies i spotted there! some are strays actually.

my favourite one!!

ok this is the mekong river. its like a freaking huge river and we had to sit in these little wooden boats from teh kampong to the open river and board our ferrys on these little floating wooden platforms in the middle of the huge river with no life jackets. fucking dangerous!couldnt get a good pic coz i dare nto move much and it was raining too.and it was an un neccessary ride!that was not the only way back to the ferry!

check out their roads. this is how they ride their rides. ive seen 5on one before.

the hotel lobby that i stayed in.

sister and i. well what i learnt from my trip?ppl there lead a hard life but nt the worst ive seen. we r lucky really. the war they fought was really what amused me most.

then when i came back the first thing to do was of course over to dear's place. and then enxt day we met at at clarke for dinner. haven had my haircut yet at that point of time :P

love this pic so cute la my honey:P

met up with gin on thurs to shop for presents. spent so much! grrr. took this at yakun iw as so hungry, i had 4 eggs and two bread. met up with honey the next day-fri to celebrate his bday but the pix r nt to be disclosed :P

regualrs meeting on sunday!

GOTCHA wency! had dinner at waraku

i like my long long hair :P

see my long long hair again. didnt realise that my hair was so so straight. virgin hair ok.

una tama don. not bad. but they r a little too stingy with the unagi. tsk

ok so we went to the jazz bar and then realised that they dont have what we wanted and then decided to leave. but hwoever we found it very rude and so we ordered a couple of drinks to share, and who knows the idiotic waitor came and said that each must at least order one. well and so wen and i decided to leave for eski bar n meet kel n gin there. tsk what a palce. nice place tho jazz at southbridge. would love to go with my honey :P at eski bar.

check out our lashes :P

wency the molestor!!

check out his wedges :p and honey would say check out my gums -.-

sexy sexy couple! ahha was just disturbing gin. she was so red from drinking tsk.
riah yee gin queena wency extra

clarence kelvin amos. amos looks so small

n so after eski bar we had supper at mac!lol we ate i think 20ove rpackts of garlic chilli
son and mom his expression is always so retarded.

finally the regulars(: took this at the 0 degree area at eski!nice pic!always looking forawrd to our group outings(: we should catch up on our good old times more!

happy belated birthday dear. even tho its nt the best one ever im sure there would be many more to come for the rest of our lives. i miss you!

that is all! so many pix for u to feast your eyes on! so i am not bothering to type much.

so which hair is better?short fringe or long?

much loveeeee

Queena

back

2008-06-14T03:24:00.003+08:00

im back with a new haircut. before and after. lots more pixto upload. honeys bday ytd.friday 13th. love you baby! hope you liekd the gift. i remember you mentioning it(:

more pix and review on the trip aft this weekend. im so busy with my very own social life. sigh. and btw i got ino the ba hons degree. congrats queena. welldone. ha better party hard for now.

tell me bout my hair ppl! its so hot i m nt gonna keep it short i swear!i look pretty odd.but some frens says its ok hmmm

before

afters.

if you see me in person i look scary,or perhaps im just nt used to it.like some ancient girl from egypt or somewher. im weird. hairdresser been talking me into cutting off my fringe for about a year?coz my forehead is getting higher meaning in other very awful words-im balding at the front! but this fringe is so hot laaa tell me somebody

i do

2008-05-31T21:51:00.006+08:00

This has been a very hectic week that i thought i was dreaming almost. But i was wrong, i was not dreaming. I was indeed living in this little world of mine which used to revolve around just school and beading. Now school is over and i am trying to decide whether to pursue a degree or to just go out and work?Or perhaps do my beading full time? I had no answers to it all until only this week i decided to apply for the nafa ba course. I wasnt ready at all actually but felt that perhaps i should give it a try? Carrying this easy carefree attitude, i walked into the interview room not knowing what sort of questions would come hurtling at me.

To my surprise i was so nervous that words didnt come out right and everything messed up. i ended up listening to my lecturer lecture me all about design and how much do i want to do it? I cannot just do it because i like it. i must do it because.... i love it? and i know i shouldnt have been such a lazy student half the time when i was doing my diploma in nafa. But of course there were times whereby i worked pretty hard and put in a reasonable amount of effort and scored pretty good grades. but that hardly happens because queena has always been the type that wants to complete her work fast n get over with it asap.

That has become a habit somehow i believe. But upon hearing what my lecturer said to me, it was pretty much of a wake up call and it set me thinking. During that moment when those words hit me, i did felt the sudden urge and motivation i had when i worked hard for a certain module. But then again i question myself if this motivation can last me throughout this course that i told myself that i want very much?

i couldnt give a straight yes. I questioned myself if i had the determination and discipline. Am i really so passionate about design that i can hold thru?or am i just so much into making money?? I have been thinking and to be honest i havent found a satisfying answer. but all i can say is that yes i love design and whats more when its all around us?if there is no design, everything would be lifeless. loved art since secondary school days even tho my parents were not very supportive throughout those years on what i have chosen.

i always tell myself to take the easy way out because time doesnt allow me to take the hardworking way out. and so very quickly and last minutely i get work done n alway managed to pull thru but of course with not so good grades. lazy lazy me!!!

now the question is am i ready for that very challenging road ahead of me which i applied for if i get it? yes i love design and im just about to get started on what he has told me to do.(: before that trip to vietnam!! hopefully i can gather nice natural stones and new inspirations for MOG and myself.

before i start on the pix, let me tel u what happened to me this week!it was hectic! first i completed my freelance shit and ok think it was accepted and it was completed on monday. tues morn raffles design called me up to go down n check out their courses available and then 30mins later a graphic design studio called me up to go for a job interview at the very sleazy orchard towers. ewww. freakyyy. then on thursday supposedly i was to meet xs and the rest to discuss some stuff but they couldnt make it so in the end i went shopping with wency!

n guess what? while queuing up for the fitting room at zara a lady right behind me suddenly tapped on my shoulder n told me that i had very nice hair and if i am interested to do a casting for pantene shampoo? i was like what? like that also can. hahaha it was unexpected totally. n so on friday morning after making a trip down to sch to make payment i went for the casting. haha just for the fun of it! not expecting myself to get it also la. nobody is so lucky right? or rather girls! if you wanna be a model and get popular!shop more at taka zara!!! :P

but the first bad omen was marked when i bumped into somebody. omg. tsk tsk tsk it was shocking and disgusting.

haha enough said there was smth that was really good that ALMOST happened to me. DAMN. why wasnt i born liek end of the year or smth!!!???haha

here are pictures taken in chronological order!

last fri, attempted to go shopping on the opening of gss but to no avail.

wency and i on thursday before we went shopping. bad photos recently dun u think!!grr

after the casting on fri. natural and light make up.. hmmm. i think we look odd. so not photogenic recently. whats wrong!!can somebody tel us? haha :P

ohoh this is my favourite, i liek ghostly shots of myself. HAHAHa

that is all. i know that the world doesnt just revolve around my selfish little heart.

life as it is

2008-05-22T23:37:00.022+08:00

Ok finally im blogging after wency nagging at me since i duno when. lotsa pix. lazy to type.

start from my grad show. only decided to have one pic up. i look funny with my phone stuffed in my pocket. and i look quite tired somehow. panels rather simple too. too many things makes me giddy.

right lifes been so far so good. i been slacking and doing nothing but bead or hanging out with friends. below is an entire series of pix in order of what i have been doing. so feast your eyes!!!

me next to my panel. lazy to load all the other shots with my frens etc.

honey and i last friday before catching iron man at cathay!

first off dinner with regulars last sat. amos and yh. the couple. stil as loving.had dinner at jacks at gw. these were tkaen at clarke paisley and cream.
stupid kel
told you he is always annoying. haha

gin and i. thinks she looks good here!

three of us. amos lookin amy.

jacks

son and i.

wen and i

three of us. amos had a hard time fitting in.

then on monday they all came over attempting to bake. but well we all know what the outcome was.lol.wency's rabbit peaches. she is so cute ok !!!

one and two.
bbq with 2f on tues!! it was pretty fun chopping vege you know. group shot. pretty bad one. the guy who took it didnt focus and it turned out like that ...

ok wrong order, too lazy to re shuffle. buffet with family on sunday at swissotel. sis and i. i htink i look ghostly but i like it. and if you noticed, my brows are trimmed already.

this is one was taken befor it was trimmed of course. randomly loaded. hhaha meeting honey tmr. well hes been stress lately its ok. i understand. im stress from the lack of sleep and its so frustrating that sometimes i wanna just get up and scream!!!

phew

2008-05-05T21:08:00.003+08:00

..ok so i made it past last night like kenneth said i had one "fierce" night. started on my flash shit last night and completed it at 7am this morning.

didnt sleep tho submissions at 9 no point. so continued with my namecard for grad show.

now i just woke up from my nap. sigh when are these crazy slping hours gonna end!!! this is driving my crazy tmr we gotta start setting up for out booth and i have not bought anything or printed anything. this week is the year 2's assessment. so every printing shop is packed with pppl

like ugh. how annoying. i fucking dun understand the school why cant you let us have our grad show like later so that we can all make great changes to our work and not having to rush and squeeze with the annoying year 2s for the printing shops!

when i was in yr 2 life was at least nt as bad as now coz there was the regent aaunty. hahaha

i think out of everything i like my namecard best. HAHAHAA

anyhows it has been a hectic night. its very disturbing to be doing work next to your sleeping maid. plus she grinds her teeth and its really disturbing.

and fuck a fucking stupid mosquito sucked blood outta my face! yes i have a bite on my left side. so irritating! n my grad show in in two days time mother fucker. all mosquitoes ought vanish and extinct they dun even contribute anything to the eco system!

its the fugliest thing i have ever seen and really sucks blood.

anyways honey was so sweet to stay up with me the entire night ytd and did not even complain much. awww. altho i know you dozed off for a couple of times. its ok(: i understand. hugs baby. i know i hardly say sweet nothings but deep in my heart its filled to the brimsssss. hahaha

now that the flash shit is over im still at lost on whhat to display on my panel. nth 3d. like WTF???

anyhows if youd like to pay me visit drop by this thurs or fri at nafa semniar room on the second floor at wing on the uh right. the one with no ugly tcc outlet. haha

afternoon would be good(:

sometimes ppl tells me that im weird. i dunno y? well lets look at the weird stuff that ppl classified stuff that i like.:

i like to play scratch and win on facebook because i like the scartching sound of the cards

i think tt the word fabrios reminds me of eggs

i like woodish paper tt feels not like paper

i like the smell of books when you flip them especially if its presssed paper

holes and punctures on sponges, wood, meat and cake sometimes bread irks me. it always never fails to catch my attention. i just wanna tear them all apart.

i like to peel skin off hands and feet. like the sun burn sorta?

i like to touch beads that has lotsa holes. it makes me feel like chewing on them

i like to squeeze happy so hard coz it makes me feel like biting him too.

you see am i so weird?

secrets

2008-05-04T14:23:00.002+08:00

secretly i felt that this is never ending, its gonna bug me all my life leaving me with no room for myself.

everything is not over i have not done anything and thus feeling so terrible

sleep seems never enough and my dark eye rings just never wanna go away fast. before i know it the day is reaching fast and facts starts hurtling at me telling me to get cracking and stop using any other lame excuse to run away from reality.

i HATE THE GRAD SHOW THAT IS COMING UP!! no time to prepare for it!! fucking shit.

i dun even know if i need to retake any photos by getting a freaking model. like fuck wher to get right now!!! which bitch would like me to photograph her? pls raise your hands. oh and you must be HOT.

tmr is my digital media production submission. and i haven done a shit. I HATE FLASH. fuck

life is terrible at this point of time, you're in between hell and earth.

i fucking hate this feeling. i cant wait for the day whereby i will be set free. im taking everything so slowly that i feel im pretty much as lazy as some ppl.

fuck!

that seems to have become my favourite word again.

when can i get over and done with? my brain is not functioning.

dear

2008-04-28T13:24:00.005+08:00

Some may think that im out of the cage of fyp. but you're wrong i have a grad show to prepare for and two mor eminor modules to clear unfortunately. and my son could happily tell me bout his stupid trip to BATAM or was it bintan i cant rem. like holy shit that doesnt make me feel anywher better then now.

at least my grades for fyp is already settled. its nt easy, getting a pass was like a relieve for all. coz there were ppl who failed. how lucky are we? well results are out in june. how stupid. grad show is on its way n im not prepared at all.

enough said. i hte grumbling too but i cant help it. its inborn! haha
weekend was great! relaxing at last. did nth but bead and go out with my dear. and gin!!she looked so pretty but i didnt manage to get a picture of her UGH.. wasted. gin dress up more ok. i like it hahaha. then aft which i met my honey pie hahaha sounds funny honey pie.

and omg i saw this agness b bag that i fell in love with instantly. i stil cant forget it til now. it was a lovely casual bag. turq green. love it!!only 285. should i buy?gin was telling me to wait for gss or smth. welll should i? ten another one at kate spade which to my disappointment nt as gorgeous as the one i saw at agnes hahaha only 600 i tink? i cant rem. it ended up looking too huge on me. somebody tel me!!!

well here are the photos from the last sentosa trip. i look damn retarded. i know. didnt use much of the photos we took tho.put chucked it into research n development for marks.

ben n jerrys nv tasted so good aft a long dayyyyyy...

this was taken saturday.. well all i can say i have forgiven you . not angry anymore.

went for manicure ytd i have teddy bear motifs on my toe nails and pastel colours on my nails. for the first time.haha

us

2008-04-12T13:06:00.005+08:00

i dont know is it just my luck or the weather just dont wan me to do some work! i have been waiting for the rain to go away for the entire morning. well finally the rain has subsided. but its still drizzling pretty heavily.

i need to go to sentosa forget about botanic gardens. all right ytd was nic's bday but no pix yet coz its all with MIO!! well its quite unlikely that we will get any of them hahaha and im SO SORRY LA NIC I THOUGHT URE 20 MY BAD! asked for the wrong number of candles. OMG.

well works been better i think tt bitch just hates me. ha really sick of her biasness and her stupid attitude and wats more? i better ot disclose too much or i might get marked forever altho im leaving hell in a few more weeks time. whereby its time to decide for the future. im still feeling very undecisive and unsure of what exactly i want.

all right heres the photos. rather not type coz who bothers to read when i can type a 1000word entry? nobody right? so y bother.

isnt he cute? i promised no tto post it but i cant help it. his dimples was one of the most important factor that captured me. i wont ise the phrase "captured my heart" sounds so cheesy. im no longer 16. im 20 now. oldddd

ok bad exposure. but i liked the look. ha

thanks honey for meeting me even tho you were so tired and i know my temper have been bad.blame that bitch. ha

all rightyyyy time to head down to sentosa.

fyp's bitch

2008-04-10T20:07:00.004+08:00

im so frustrated with school work right now

its so confusing

n this sturday i need to go take picture of the freaking beach and botanical gardens can u fucking imagine

i only have freaking week left you know

my freaking magazine ad is not ready yet my catalogue's bg is not finalised.

my website is half way done

like wtf!

change some more la

two against one

anyhows its happys birthday today. got some crossiant shaped dog cookies. and he does the bang trick before i even ask him to -.- trying to act smart lol

also received clay beads i ordered from an isreali artist, really gorgeous. too bad im in mood to take any photos because somebody just ahve to spoil it

i really have no more energy to go on. its sucking up too much of me.

happys debut

2008-04-07T17:49:00.004+08:00

ok remember i said iwill have a video of happy? haha combined a few tog and compressed it :P he is so fat. right enjoy his cuteness. hes a really good companion.thought him tricks whenever i was bored.learns really fast.hardly destroyed anything. well only when he was a pupppy.whatever u drop into the floor it would be gone. haha

ok enjoy the video. pls i know my voice sounds really funny and retarded. lol i have no idea why either la ok. haha

so adorable right. sigh back to fyp. its boggling my mind!!

21st

2008-04-06T00:17:00.006+08:00

i sorta completed some work today and so i decided to blog.
didnt wanna bead coz my eyes feels strained. cant type much either coz the maid's asleep. here are some pictures.

its been 21months and 3days since dear and i got together. it has been a rather amusing journey. all the hiccups and thunder storms. hah i'l save it all til the 24th month yeah.

thought happy some new tricks. altho he cant up and hold. when u snap your finger and go up! he will jump and hold up a lil bit.really cute. haven got the video ready yet so next time! some pictures of him too.sitting at my rooms window looking downstairs. waiting for his gf. haha. he's relly funny when he calls out to you to carry him up to watch the streets. better take more pictures of him now. before he gets too old and blind. hahaha

a few days ago it was aprils fool. i managed to fool someone. guess who?

AMOS KHOO THAT KUKU LAAA . bluffed him that happy died from heart attack(touch wood!) n sounded so upset like i was dead. he believed me and called me an asshole for lying to him after he finding out the truth. lol. stupid. well of course if happy dies i think i'd be depressed for at least 2weeks. well...he's already turning 7 this coming april 10th.haha stil so handsome!

he looks really fluffy. but yeah i know i look retarded -.- can u believe that he's a chihuahua? lol. he is apure breed from aust.many ppl always stare at him in disbelief. hes fat n huge for a chihuahua. i know. haha over fed and over grown.tts wat i always tell ppl.

like this one lots. the i dun wanna take picture face.so adorable!! look at his double chin.tsk tsk tsk.

last but not least.honey and i. took it about two aweeks ago.on the bus.tt explains the shakiness. annoying bus driver. btw, i really hate the cap.

back to fyp. pfftt

regulars outing

2008-03-30T17:34:00.016+08:00

Hi whoever that is reading, its a hot and boring sunday afternoon and so i decided to update my blog since i dont feel like doing any school work at all. ha.

ytd was another regulars outing.altho not everyone managed to turn up. we had fun too!!! this is one my entries with the most number of pictures.

in case anyone is wondering why are we called the regulars, here is the reason behind it. 4 years ago, we were a bunch of lazy but band crazy people struggling to do well for o levels at the very last minute in bukit merah secondary school(except wency coz she is always ahrdworking..lol) soon after the traumatizing o's. we continued our strong passion for music in our homegrown band. preparing for our last concert at VCH.the concert we shed pretty much for and fought back many authorities too. we were very naughty students in some teachers eyes to the extent whereby they banned us from going back. how nasty! we were just fighitng for wat the band deserved. well enough said bout that. its all the past, watever that we ahve done is no longer appreciated and rememeberd. ha DISAPOINTING.

SO we got together at first with jsut wency, me, kelvin, amos and gin. then refat brought in guest players from fuhua and i cant rem wher. i think unity or was it shuqun?i cant rem laaaa. and so we met clarence! i dunno hwo somehow we manage to get along well and got together n called outselves regulars!hung around alot during those days, when we have nth to do after the concert they would always come over to my palce to swim or jsut simply rot our day away. soon another passionate palyer joined us! and its RIAH!! so now there is 8 of us. there were times wher we were all very distanced coz we ardly met up. but whenever we do. nth much really changes. that is wat good ol' frens are like. i much prefer being in a mixed gender group then a pure female group.its rather sickening.

anyhows we had lotsa fun ytd. again some mishap happened to wency.lol wen and i went to do our brows together at paragon ebfore meeting the others for dinner at thai express. tehn it was to borders at wheelock to surprise riah!! then to hilton's haegon daz. it was pretty cool to jsut ahve ice cream instead of alcohol all the time. lol right after sitting for an hour we decided to do smth we have nvr ever done before!!! haha the pcitures will spell a thousand words. so enjoy them! oh and also we gotta thank riah for sending us home on a free cab ride :D

First off of course you must start with me!lol pictures are all posted in sequence to where we were first. didnt take anyduring eye brow session tho.so starting from thai express!

i kinda like my new brows. its naturally very dark and thick and i think this tiem it looks fine. not too thick.

That is obviously the toilet. not the thai express. quite obvious right?wency me and gin!

yh says we always look the same when we pose. then how u want us to pose!!we cant act cute!so disgusting!

at haegon daz alr!

now the crazzy session starts!

outside LV.lol

Bvlgari

ok i look lame -.-

hahaha stupid son!!the butler of the night!carrying our bags.

they look pretty compatible ey..tsk tsk tsk.

all right that is all for now. off for dinner with family. seirously i ahte sundays cause i ahve to go to sch tmr!!

and of course i hope to see my love tmr. really miss him. he's been really cute lately:P

i hate

2008-03-27T22:21:00.003+08:00

i hate

im now going to list down things that i think i should rant about after being put under so much stress from the very moment i stepped into NAFA.

The day that i hate most now from monday to sunday is apparently Thursday. coz 6 hours is wasted for a stupid module called Proffessional Practice which i found came in too late. it should have been slotted in during our year 2 semesters. if its at 12pm it wont be so bad coz at least i waste a lesser amount of hours. but now i waste 3 hours in between just for another 3 hours of boring lesson.

Why do i hate PP?

the lecturer is liek a block of wood like how everyone describes him. he stones half the time when u're presenting, doesnt give comments most of the time. Usually we doze off very much during his class. besides maybe the movie session? that is how bad it is. well at least we had a great tiem gossiping about everything in class today!!

from people around us to refrigerated celebrities from ten years ago to drama queens . seriously, we were so bored that backstreet boys could be a hot topic and also absurd things like how king of pop can do "it" with such sensitive conditions. the funniest thing is how he hold his crotch when he dances. cant be too crude here, he is after all the king of pop.

haha

Also i hate Nafa's time table coz there is never any breaks in between if say you're having lessons back to back. well mayb say ten minutes in between for you to go to the toilet? so stupid.
that always occurred during year one and two days.

and some lecturers have a very poor command of english that non chinese students dread consulting them. "bear-sically" hahahaha

well but of course there are some really good ones with experience rich as gold. heh

ok im bored of writing now, back to FYP. im so sleepy tho.

constipated

2008-03-17T22:33:00.013+08:00

ok firstly a new tagboard and a very last min blogskin.coz i screwed the previous. get it fixed soon.tell me which is better!!

Life sucked the moment it was monday.which is today.coz it marks the begining of my final term in nafa. my goodness. i ahven done a single shit! was dragged by miss peh to a talk for the signing of papers with UniSIM for some business design course which she felt was right for me.it was quite a boring session coz there wasnt much about the course like how much and how long .etc. altho i was honestly interested in it?they didnt even brief us about it!! i guess i gotta find out more hmmmm.....

well i know i haven't blogged for about a month plus.hmm well im stil the same, grumpy and still as constipated. pfftt

Well, dun really know wat to blog about. as you can see my previous chatterbox have been deleted coz its so old! i ahve kept this blog barely alive for 4 years now.

im really very bored. the regulars ahve been meeting up more recently, its a good thing right?altho it means that we gotta spend more money.baaa who cares we enjoyed ourselves!

ok cny is over n so is my bday.the pictures are mostly in my laptop.n so.... here are some newer pictures!! of honey and i!

well my bday was pretty good. received shu uemura lashes from 1 and 3. music box that plays a version of ave maria that i do not regonise from yh and wen. lol and an unknown gift from amos which he has yet pass me till THIS DAY.u idiot. and a handmade hersheys bouquet made by gin! i didnt bare to eat it :P kept it in the fridge

and last but not least a Nintendo DS Lite from my love. oh and a new digi cam too! pretty good bday this year huh. when im 21 next year!i hope to go on a trip together with my friends and my love!!(: not too far, maybe perth or smth.i need to relax. enough crap. this is how i look like now. baaa.

tts my leg and some purple feathers.i was not playing any kinky sex game with love.dun misunderstand!!lol

My sexy and i.took the prev pic down coz honey was unhappy bout it.this is the best i can find!

The stark shiney black ds.((: love it so much..thanks honey.my mom is always snatching it from me!!!GRRR

Ok i haven got any pix of all the other presents because its all in my lap top!-.- it died on me AGAIN.well well... lets just pray that i can rescue my files!!

that is all for now. i feel like going shopping alone tmr.anyone wants to keep me company? well today i had amos to come to bmc to help carry the shirts for me. ha!tts for not giving me the gift! bad son! .... just kiddingggg... thanks alot. my sexy love claims that i was bullying you!! SERIOUSLY. who are you kidding here lol.

anyhows i felt rather lost about my entire future now.it seems bleek.OH NO! i would probably consider some new degree course and try to sustain that entrepreneur spirit in me(:

all right enough crap. till the next time. i think its gonna be a long one.

oh i got a new chatterbox up too!go n tag ok!!or else.... I KILL U!!!

i feel like writing

2008-01-24T22:16:00.000+08:00

today we saw a dead cat lying on the patch of grass right in front of school's foyer.

I think it got ran over by some vehicle. it was a dead black cat. there were students who went and took pictures of it.

no.2 wanted to go FEEL if it was ok. like hello? miss spca now?

haha

yeah was quite sad. imagine when it starts to decompose. i saw a flattened decomposing squirel before. right at my house's bus stop. gross out

its been almost a month since i last blogged. life's been so so

i have yet to bank in my pay cheque coz im so busy beading and doing school work while trying to keep my mind off honey while he's concentrating on his exams. FYP is so impt but im kinda stuck.

i just have the sudden urge to write.

perhaps i'd like to touch on who do i call a true friend? hmm someone who doesnt complain and stick by me. besides my honey there is one more other person tt wil do so without any complaints! even tho there would be he would still do it.weird right... lol and he is....

MY SON.

he looks stupid trying to act "artistic" wake up toothpick. you can never be artistic. hahaha jk

like he says hes got xlb.two of it. pfftt

lamer

anyhows, cny is round the corner and i have not bought a single shit. like OMG!(bimbotic manner) going shopping tmr with my love. soooo long since we last spent some good time shopping for real. we attempted last weekend but everything sucked. anymore good shops to retail at anyone!

far east plaza is so out for me pls. a place for like pai kias and u know wat i mean. teenagers. im so pass tt phase. coz im no longer a teen! LIKE OMG!!! NO MORE TEEN! (bimbotic manner again)

heres a list of what i want for my bday:

proper digi cam
my canon ixus is screwed up! ( i hope to psycho my mom or dad into buying it for me)

nintendo ds lite
just a luxury i always wanted coz i like to play cooking mama and start blowing at the gadget like a fool just to boil some soup

a big bag for sch. furla one i think its hmm 800plus or was it 1kplus. hmmm o.O cant rem i loved the shade of blue leather

miu miu handbag *screams*

new handphone. my phone's keypad is like a total goner. i somehow plucked it all off ha sony ericcson 850i i like~

a gorgeous silver bikini *bling bling* bronze or copper bling is fine too haha

jimmy choos (so victoria beckham *rolls eyes*)

miu miu shades. gucci would do fine too HAHA

last but not least................................................

TO GROW TALLER

ahahha that is smth that can never happen. anyhows the above list is NOT constructed in a random order HAHAHA

that is all for now. i cant wait to talk to love for like 12 hours straight on the phone LOL

on top of all the happy things here is something on the heavier note. liek yeah with accent and mezo forte.

i really love band alot and still miss band so much. i may have my own trumpet but i try my best to take time out to play. i stil can play but has however lost the stamnia and lips muscles along the cheeks as well. we have discussed about setting up a alumni band during ur jubilance dinner 3. however we were taken aback by the fact that SOMEBODY decided to not have us back.

maybe they should start asking themselves deep down inside, if there wasnt us, would there still be you? if there wasnt us would you have gotten the opportunity to watch concerts, listen to proper band songs, play band songs and needless to say enjoy and be part of OUR concert?

we were very heratbroken to have heard of such devastating news. very heartbreaking indeed.(sounding old here, i know let me finish it) we built the foundation but are not at all appreciated. like what wency said- ingrats!

when you get too comfortable in whatever current position you're in. u will never grow and would never have the courage to fight back the authorities. why didnt you inherit the zest and courage from us? very often i wonder if the trumpet section photo i always held on to with the slightest hope of performing together again was just a dream.

i hate school i need a break pls.

any suggestion on what kinda haircut i should get? haha

cough cough COUGH.........dead

did you know?

the bird that can fly for the longest and furthest is actually the duck? the blue feet one. i cant rem its name. animal planet rocks!!

regulars

2007-12-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

hi all
xmas is over and new yrs round the corner, what is my resolution? hmmm stay HOT AHAHAHAH just kidding~

apparently xxxxxxx and xxxxxxxxx feels the email made htings worse. not gonna disclose anything.i wasnt really affected by it immaculously, coz i have already put it behind me. so pls dun do stupid small actions to try spice things anymore because regulars should stay tog always.not referring to anyone, so pls dont start pointing fingers, its alr quite sad tt we didnt get to celebrate xmas tog! ):

and yew hao stop gossiping like a girl. altho amos bitches too like a gay coz hes a clerk. HAHAHA jkjk

played my trumpet on hmmm wed i think. omg my lips feels like its bruised or smth ahaha. bad bad bad

on a lighter note i found gin someone new and nt too bad.

so kelvin and yew hao u better be on hot on your heels coz my girl has got a new someone!!

evilll

this yr have been a rather fruitful year. altho i ahve been busy like hell, it was a good one.

my life revolved around work school my bf and it goes on like a cycle. how boring is that

now i am asked if i wanna cont working with the place im interning at when school starts. some sorta like a part timer thingy but i am giving it second thoughts

recently mog took another step out by being able to take part in upper end designer bazzar which goes thru strict selection and branding.

so i really dun wanna give up neither of my job being a jewlry designer n a graphic designer

anyhows, been texting son recently pretty alot.

hes been pretty much of a good entertainer

honey have been well the norm fishing almost everyday of the week whenver he can and i have been beading like a crazy women.

i dunno where i am heading seriously in terms of my career that is apparently already taking off.

how fast! i ahve yet to get my degree!!!

confused**

17th

2007-12-04T23:42:00.000+08:00

17th 01

a little late

and gosh so kept up with school work then and now!!!intern. butwell at least i dont need to bring work home to do i relax totally after work. now all i worry about is to stay fair if not i would have wasted the jab tt gave me huge blue back at my arm wher the veins are. its scary i look abused. too bad no shots of it

anyhows, lifes been good. internship is all right. altho yeah kinda sad. haha but im happy that i get 600 instead of 400 which my frens r getting and i dun need to bring my own lap top which is so tiring and heavy.

assessments was all right. kinda last min as usual

but yeah dont wanna talk bout it anymore

lost so much sleep i felt like a dead person

today went out with son been meeting up pretty much recently. haha his hair is so sad.

anyhows i was bored and so i decided to log into facebook and did a lame IQ test. answered some questions anyhowly coz its to spot the diff kinda stupid thing? i mean my eyes are tired from al the contact lenses and whole day at work!!! and still you want me to strain. ....

and surprisingly i scored 103, above average!! haha son didnt dare to do coz he was scared that he;d get 70-80 i mean seirously if uve got a smart mom how stupid can u get. altho she answered the bottom anyhowly coz she was so fucking tired she was like oh fuck it i tot it was only ten qns
haha

anyways some photos to show that im stil alive!!!!!!!!!!!!! RAWRS as usual im too lazy to photoshop zzz tts why all the photos are high res and damn big. didnt even bother to scale... haha i know im stil AS LAZY!!

this was taken right after a terrible fight. usually after every huge fight we love each other more. i dont know why sometimes when we talk too nicely to each other i think its so weird!! tsk tsk tsk love is in the air
we went fishing!!! yeah like wtf!!oh and we did catch a fish all right. i watched it die while it stared at me. coldly.

ytd was 17th. he made this damn it nice baseless pasta. omg love it. usually he'd make like rice and say vegetarian stuff coz he knows i dun eat much vege. but it always tasted super damn nice. im hungry now!!!

son with his beanie. so weird. he looks better without. like a little boy. we met up tt day for minda cafe with gin n hao. didnt get a shot of him he was in slipers and some pasar malam t shirt with three quarters tt looked like he worn it since he was ten. hhaha the minimart joke and how son tried to hit my legs and hit his own instead.stupid shit!!!

gin took that shot, she prefers to show off her cleavage more then her face.

i am god damn it fair. cant stand it!!! all right dunw aste the 100++++ $$$ grr. miss you babe come over soon to bake for christmas!! haha and collect the ar guu ok

that is all for now my eyes are tired the lids are feelin heavy. the bed is whispering from afar for me softly. good night

17 01

loves.

this suck

2007-10-02T23:56:00.000+08:00

yes, finally im back with an entry at least. warning this is gonna be a very long entry with photos.

school has been fucking hectic and i just never seem to have gotten any rest at all. WTF
yes wtf i am NOT gonna have ANY HOLIDAY till probably next april? GREAT. and i have not found a bloody place to do my attachment. SUCK

seriously NAFA is really slow and i mean SLOW and NOT EFFECIENT. pfftt

however, im not here only to whine of course. today a complimentary copy of a certain NEW newspaper cum magazine arrived in my mail box. it is the one which my friends and i almost advertised in. HALLELUJAH THANK GOD we didnt! because whoever the editor or designer is
it SUCKED.
seriously.NO SENSE OF BEAUTY. UGLY. TERRIBLE COVER PAGE.TERRIBLE TYPOGRAPHY.TERRIBLE COLOURS. my god u dare to produce it massively?WASTE OF MONEY and STOP KILLING TREES!! the cover page model is this fat looking guy probably in his late 20's holding two pairs of hopelessly cheap looking sunglasses with UNCLEANED nails and a very not professionally taken photography. which u can see that the quality is not even 150dpi.

it is filmsy and doesn't even look like a readable piece of material. the cover page really destroyed the entire piece of work. the interior is ok.. hmmm not very acceptable but still all right. i just strongly feel they need a new designer. coz its so horribly done!!!! cover page is very important u wasted all the efforts u put inside. seriously!

it hurts my eyes when i look at it. not saying that im a way better designer in publication design or wat so ever. but it is really way too terrible. if this is smth local designers can produce i think the designer have put us all to shame.

anyways on a lighter note here are some photographs we took during the regulars gathering on gin's birthday at MOS.

wency,gin and i

honey and i

gin and i

us again

right overthe last weekend i had an event at clarke quay which was VERY SUCCESSFUL!!YAY!! with my new beading friend adrine!!it was fun and of course great to meet new people and some very irritating ones who kept asking for discount when its already very cheap. harloe we put in hardwork!! anyways here are some photos taken during the event

adrine and i

the "stall"

right that is all for now.. before i say anything else

happy 15th.

i really fucking hate school

2007-08-21T01:49:00.000+08:00

i really fucking hate school
i really fucking hate school
i really fucking hate school

good bye

i hate u bitch

2007-08-18T13:48:00.000+08:00

hey u bitch
u suck

hahaha

been so bitchy these days

how troublesome

i hate to be a girl at times

so gossipy

if u wanna know jolly well ask me

dun lie

coz liars go to hell

n for those who love to copy FUCK OFF dun view my page ten times a day maxing to hours

pls wat do u call tt?

n pls what others do u also do
how special can u be?

WHY MUST CHOOSE OTHERS BUT NOT YOU?
WAH PIANG

USE YOUR BRAIN LA

oh~
i FORGOT

sombody must have STOLE it and u didnt realise

hahaha

n stop it my bracelete signature is my bracelete signature

dont over do it

im not BLIND coz im not OLD yet

stop copying peoples thoughts!

its so.... shitty like where's your brains? who stole it may i know

if u have an answer tell me hah i may try getting it bck for u. *winks*

im so confused

2007-08-15T23:58:00.000+08:00

hi all
one month ago exactly was my last entry

today has been a bad day

the fuckin talk wasted my time
and that caused me to be so freaking tired i have totally no mood to do the fucking dd

i miss honey
he is so stress

im so emotional n stress

we make the best pair!

oh bulls queena so full of shit
school is making me so stressed up i wanna die

i hate school

i hate everyone

i hate this world!

i hate myself

rahh

i have no time to bead and make money

i need a life

its liek shit now
school home sleep

sleep is never enough!

how cool is kate moss?
yeah

the cock eye is cool

pooffss**

bbq

2007-07-15T01:43:00.001+08:00

bbq anyone? i can feel that all that chicken wings hot dogs and everything is really going up my head...

pfftt

bbq today was all right better then the pathetic xmas one in i think 2005? hahaha which was under the damn rain and we had to hold two HUGE umbrellas and bbq.how sad was that!!
haha

well this time round i didnt had any headaches or menses cramps or any shit loads my weak body tend to give me whenever i meet the regulars. so i liked the chicken wings my honey cooked and of course the prawns n everything too!

Son came over at bout 230 to start marinating the stuff.SERIOUSLY,U NEED HELP. haha he cant marinate the chicken properly seriously!

but oh wells hes better then what we knew he was two years ago when he couldnt even instant noodles better. but he did good in the de frosting part.is that hw u spell it?~~

ok im worse. dear says my curry maggie mee sucks. n all i could do is to fry a bloody egg.well half true. its been so long since i stepped into the kitchen ever. i can only bake,tts smth tt i can nvr forget. one of the bestest skills ive ever acquired out of practicing day n night during my longgg holis back then. hah

now i acquired another skill which is to bead! how smart and talented is miss Queena chan seriously.the hot talented beautiful queena chan.want a piece of me? OH FUCK OFF u sick pervertic arseholes. haha *i rem how some pervert told me back then*

anyhows

bbq was cool red wine was....hmmmm... haha n wells our bfs n frens *guys* had a good talk. my god...die la..jialat la ....

ok i cant believe it i just spoke that kinda language.

anyhows thank god i didnt bake today because the food was just nice!! well we had a left over of two chicken wings and as usual it was thrown away.

haha

overall i had a good day catching up with my good ol' friends and yes yes we had fun playing each others instrument. im rather rusty id say.... but i stil can reach that two octave n even higher now. hah who says my mr.T really sits in the box to collect dust? i maintain it k? hah
i have yet to get a bloody tuner after so bloody freaking long.is anyone gonna get me that!!!???

haha

all right i hope my mr sexy is done with his stupid dumb game soon because im so tired of typing alr and nth is igniteing tt spark in me to write anymore.

good nights

ps*ppl says i seem to have lost weight tho i been eating so much u wont believe it. and the weighing machines does proves that weight loss i just mentioned.FREAKY ISNT IT. oh wells...ice cream n potato chips my best fren!!!

...pooofss..**

en bloc O.O

2007-07-01T18:57:00.000+08:00

so long since the last post

i was bored

plus the fact tt i heard news tt my buildings en bloc is gonna hit 80% in no time. i got a lil upset but also happy at the same time

who wouldnt like 2m in ur pocket right?

anyhows lets rewind.on friday i was out on an ADVENTURE with my dear gin. i treated her to a good ol' meal at fish manhattan which costs me a good $42.85 ok amazing how i can rem the price. then we started our adventure at spotlight. theres actually two very VERY exclusive pictures of me but i prefer not to upload it. haha laziness is one whole big issue

and then she treated me ten bucx or more worth of ice cream at swensens. that had lotsa nuts and super sweet. oh wells.n after tt we scrumbled through the damn rain to get to wisma.GREAT.from ps to wisma how drenched.
that was when gin suggested to go buy $2 umbrella from DAISO. we had a great time pretending to be some super hero sailormoon with some of their barangs. goodness.

we had fun!

haha

one great evening filled with lotsa laughters and joy with my dear gin!!!water retention bitch RAHH

haha

enough of that. went out with dearie last night. hmmm nth much

i cant wait for tuesday!!!:P

anyhows, regarding en bloc.lets talk bout the sad part
i moved into this old looking ugly condo when i was 7. just because it was near my pri sch(CHIJ KELLOCK) and of course its one hell of a prime location. its super near clarke quay(walking distance) ten mins of bus ride to town.ten mins walk to chinatown where i usually get some of my beads. only costs me a max of $3+ when i travel home from clubbing.how great.or i can just walk. but i cant anymore because theres some banglah molester on the lose.

and altho its old the pool gives u the privacy u can nvr find at other NEW AGE condos which are usually plagued with irritating kids who tend to pee in the water and mothers who gossips while looking after.and a badminton court tts so quiet. tt if u died there nobody would realise. lol jk~
the squash court is new n pretty n i HAVE NOT USED IT YET!! im telling u im gonna use everything before i move out (ever). and pearls hill pri sch right next to us. the creepiest place ever.the sch bells rings in the middle of the night OUT OF ThE BLUE.even now!!altho its alr been torn down half way.the bell still rings.how freaky.

so our bbq on july 14th with regulars is confirmed. tho i have not booked the pit.

besides there are BAD things bout this condo
neighbours who stays like thirty floors above you can stil gossip bout u.can u believe it?

its like annoying. if u have a problem with the way i dress or the "rich look" or however u define me.its your problem. im rich so what?im not rich so what?
if u can earn up to $2k in a week while shaking ur leg half the time ok maybe not half.but 3/4 the time at the age of 19.then u tel me whether my mom gave me money or i din work at all ok?

anyways enough of the crap

im so tired

i rotted today aft having birthday lunch with my sis.

packed items to mail, cleared some stuff,packed all rightful items. n i stil have custom orders. so dead.so dead!!!

anyhows, tts all for now!

...pooofss...**

day 2 without u

2007-06-16T02:13:00.001+08:00

today is day number two without him.

yes he is in cambodia for a short trip of 7 days.

i really miss him. its alr 2am now. i cant seem to bead much

i am now stuck with only 27 ready made items.

i hand painted many many today.

i wish i could call him anytime i want. but idd calls r just killers!

was at ah boon's bbq cum chalet just now
goodness pasir ris sure looks different now. everything has changed. i didnt feel much younger.

wells food was great. loved the sting ray and kebabs(however u spell it) the pepper sauce was good..

haha i think my son(amos) has really grown up. hes got a gf now,lovingly together and he has learnt how to at least make another thing better then the green coloured soup. haha

i really miss band alot too. i think when my event is over
i have so much catching up to do.like finally picking up my trumpet from under my table and also some night life.

im nt fast enuff. i really am not. . i really need to. 24hrs a day is too lil. can make it 48?

but it aint a good thing !coz i will miss my honey more):

i wonder hows he over there now. altho we still do call at times.

i really miss u.hugs n kisses.

i pray for good sales n for myself to work like a factory the next two days!

life sucks.kill it.

..pooofss**

wtf is wrong with blogger

2007-06-10T16:18:00.001+08:00

honestly

i do not know wtf is going on with blogger

i hate blogger

i dun wanna move

i dun wanna remove this diary of mine

it consists of my emotions for the past 3yrs.

i hate to say this

but im so much pain

copycats!

2007-06-06T11:58:00.000+08:00

WAH .... *fainted*

so much about copycats... like WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU???? Is it so hard to seek permission???Don't EVEN try the "I-really-didn't-see" excuse... because it's not gonna work...Jacqueline had to call her corporate lawyers to warn a few before they credited her and admitted that yes they ripped off her ideas... LIKE SHE FEEL SO DAMN VIOLATED can.... *like being raped ya* muhahahhaha was telling me...and i feel that way too laaa..VIOLATED!!!

perhaps i could get my family lawyer to do soon as well. a warning letter would do fine for a shocking surprise in your mail box perhaps?

Ok for one, beading is a passion but not when you just go around and use people's ideas. Passionate about copying?Ideas meaning like Jacqueline's zillion ways to wear necklaces.
.And also ideas like Edynae's wiring. PLEASE RESPECT HER... go seek her permission people!!!

Its not hard to ask, because we would be happy to share!

Ideas like Queena's(me) handpainting on beads!!!

If you are inspired, just SAY you ARE inspired!!!!(LIKE IF U REALLY ARE OR KNOW WHAT IS PASSION OR INSPIRATION) Haven't your teachers taught you NEVER TO COPY????

Omg... the worse PHOTOCOPIER I've met to date is MISS JOLENE. She really really tops the list can. REALLY!!!!The rest would politely admit and then credit.MISS JOLENE is the LIMITS!!!(yeah she can really ***K OFF n D**) :XX ooppss

Please seek permission, because if you don't.... WE MIGHT JUST GO COPY YOURS and sell at like $1 each piece! EXACT REPLICAS of yours... just so that you can learn your lesson! and also on another note.BLOGGER DATES CAN BE BACKDATED WITH JUST A LICK OF YOUR LIL FINGER.

you know we would really love to share and permissions would be granted fully if u even have the couretesy to ask!we won't eat you up really!pls have some manners!don't behave like an ill-mannered barbarian!

You are not a photocopying machine so don't become one!(you wanna choose from sony,panasonic,hp or national photocopying machine?which brand?)

*NOTE-post from angelicious creations given with full permisison to do editing and also words of my own added in. coz i aint no photocopying machine:D

ps-all vulguarities are censored to prevent bad influence on surfers under the age of 16.and also perhaps the copycats should show the kids how photocopy too right since they are sooooo good at it.like a 300DPI resolution man.

new logo

2007-05-21T18:46:00.000+08:00

yes yes i created new logo!100%original. lol mio took them during studio last term :P it looks rather weird here anyways click them n get navigated to my site! :P

blogger is really stupid

2007-05-13T15:09:00.000+08:00

u know blogger is really stupid. does it rreally matter if im using singnet or starhub or watever shit internet access u can find?

ure stil giving us problems. so its your fault. altho yes, singnet have be faulty recently and i really feel like screaming at the fucking operator at the end of the line to fix the damn problem and stop getting me disconnected especially when im updating my shop and hten everything is gone just beause i gotta REBOOT MY DAMN SYSTEM.

how dumb.

im so sick of being nice. its hard to nice. even harder to be a princess to everyone. some ppl just refuse to reply emails. DEAD buyers. oh whatever. gmail has problem?dun bullshit me

lifes been pretty good tho.business been brisk after advertising at kennysia.com u should really his site.really cracks u up.

it brought me alot of australian customers and thus i had to activate my paypal. and that also allowed me to buy pretty beads all the way from germany :P from kameo clay designs.

but wells ive been so tired and kept up with work i neglected some ppl ):

so today i decided the first thing im gonna do is make smth for my mom.:D will upload the photos soon :P

and then despite having the verge to murder my maid for talking on her bloody fucking cell phone right at the balcony behind my bed in MY ROOM. SO FREKAING LOUDLY.waking me up at 8AM!!!!on a freaking sunday!!!

my god she stil dare to talk back. well shes gonna be fired alr. my sister was complaining too EVERYDAY MAN EVERYDAY shes happily chatting away in her bahasa indonesia while doing the laundry at MY BALCONY, RIGHT ebhind MY BED RIGHT IN MY EARS!sucka.

so today i couldnt take it anymore after i worked til lyk 4am last night on my beading!!!! i dragged yself out of bed, unlocked the freaking windows and scremed at her to shut up and get back to work!

how nasty.

now enough of the nasty things

exactly one year ago. or rather one yr and one day ago i met my darling for the first time at paragon :o he remembers wat i wore.amusing. well....

he wore a black and white stripped long sleeve with three quarters and a flesh imp dark blue dirty looking cap with his dirty nike dunk which was bout to be torn apart at any moment.. :P haha i have very vivid memories too. well not all the time.just sometimes :P

i miss my darling ): but hes busy having an affair with his BED!!! haha

all right enough crap

u know theres smth that i really desire besides that green leather bag at guess i saw the other day which was only 80bucx. very tempting. iwil go down VERY SOON.BAHAHA. wells so what is the hting that i really desired for soooo long??? ITS TAMAGOTCHI. now tha ti ahve an average amount of income coming in weekly.ITS TIME. haha but oh wells i shall consider being such a spendthrift.after all i ahve to be pampered right??? hmmm o.O

gtg now. before i go heres some eye candy i made to sell and was a damn hot item.:P

sold alr la..but yeah just smth random. haha

yeah so im not gonna wait til june to update unlike wat kenneth said (stupid turtle) haha and i finally updated my links linekd people and relinked as well! :P

ok final picture of the hottest guy ive ever made out with. AHHAHAAH just kidding :p just the love of my life heh heh. how do u spell romance again?

he says he looks fierce. i dun think so. its so "i wanna squeeze" look to me. haha

tata

...poooffss..**

i think i do

2007-04-24T02:26:00.000+08:00

im so sorry blog that i have been neglecting you

i didnt mean to

im so cooped up at home beading and finishing orders

i m rather happy and stressed at the same time

the tinge of excitement doesnt set in anymore. its lost

but i found a hint of sweetness in me today as i layed by ur side and soflty we spoke about everything from past to present.

i really had a great day today

i wanna pause beading soon n have a social life.

but its really getting pretty much into me. im going haji lane on wed to source for rhodium and 14k gold stuff. i cant stand tarnishes im gonna upgrade.

apparently the most important person now

is

YOU

ok totaly genuine and no photoshopping!!btw i lost those shades to the evil mouth of the sea. it reached out with its large hands and devoured my lovely shades at sentosa. good bye shades. in the loving memory you will always be! haha hey i think this pic is cute i put this up nt because of the "trend" but because i really felt like it.altho a very old photo. i think i still look hot.HAHAHA jk

good night

...pooofss.**

im down

2007-04-12T00:17:00.000+08:00

i havent been in a very good state recently
i cant sleep well
i got lotsa things to do
n time to squeeze out for

i have an event this saturday at *scape 3-9pm(beind cine youth park)

i have not enough things so apparently im still making them

im really tired
being creative or not
ppl always take ur ideas first without u even knowing or u may take theirs without even knowing that they alr have it

wat to do
NOTHING is original in this world let me tel you

every design is copied in either bigger or smaller ways

if u study the history u wil learn how styles are born and why i said tt.
who invented lines?who invented the mixture of colours and then who copies them n prodcue their work and make it art and then call it original?many ppl for eg. picasso,william de kuning.etc. y i listed the both of them coz they both love drawing naked women whaha and wells sorta alike to me in a way coz they are always naked. :X hahaha

i rem how ifah got so angry when ivan copied her idea not only once but TWICE. oh man.wtF!!

my style?i love art nouveau tts y

well i nvr had anyone who stole my design or maybe i just dunno.while i witness others getting so pissed at ppl stealing their concepts etc . either at sch, blogshop or wat so ever

it all applies

i m so tired of this world

pls stop spinning im gonna puke

...poofss..*

my wedding photo

2007-03-28T03:04:00.000+08:00

i just had this urge to blog although i know i dun have the time

i once said nobody can ever hurt me because its just like ure tryin to hit me with a bullet through a flock of doves.

but i think i found the someone who really has the power now

i was surfing while tryin to complete my ad resubmission for the one who can only screw asses and i htink im so sick of my life

altho yesi developed a new passion for beading.
i still think i need more new things
iwanna travel i wanna feel the connection in this world amongst everyone

i wanna explore
im so tired

the image of myself in my wedding gown suddenly appeared in a flash

i wonder when is tt day ever gonna be here maybe never.
but nvm i can always so studio portfolios of myself ahaha

n of course recenlty many things changes has occured to my life two very BIG NEWS hit me and i was so soso taken aback i almost just cracked up n died in my little shell tt contains my emotions love concern care expectations lust imagination n everything

oh lord
pls direct me and guide me with those gentle warm hands of urs

poofs..**

i updated my shop take a look at my brain child!

www.mistressofglam.blogspot.com

Bazaar at The Balcony

2007-03-24T00:29:00.000+08:00

NOTE*
ON the SECOND level

there would be many more great items that you have nvr witnessed on my blog before. used better materials this time round.

will have a little preview on whats gonna be there on sunday!and also a little privelege coupon for surfers of my site!

loves,
mistressofglam

i m tired

2007-03-14T00:34:00.000+08:00

ive been sick

ever since i guess one or two weeks aft the last post?
ard just after cny on the 14th day of it.suck.i know.

well not surprising because i m weak
meaning the chances of me catching any sort of disease compared to anyone is like 50% higher.

and now i m still unwell

the giddy spell is getting to me again

i really hate sch work
i hate it to the core im no longer interested in it anymore
i am no longer being motivated to produce work like a fucking machine. im a human being ok
im just a normal girl who loves shopping,food,my frens,my family, my loved one and of course money.(everything in random order)
ok tt was sooo bimbo

but anyways
im feeling troubled,by many sources, well first of all is of course my health issue.second, its one of the most important person of my life.

i m really confused now. i see smth a year ago happening.

theres something wrong with me

the all time bitch.

www.mistressofglam.blogspot.com
click it before i chew your bones and feed it to my dog.

i wil upload the photos SOON

i promise

im worried about grandma too.):

...pooofss*

fuck off world

2007-02-25T05:28:00.000+08:00

fuck off world

this is the most horrible day of my life.

i hate this world

i hope the day i die would come soon.prob in another 30-40 years time. i already said we're all born to die.life is a fucker.

i hate visiting

i hate life

i hate school work

i hate CIVILISATION

bastards mother fuckers go to hell. i hate this world!knnccb.nb.go n die.fuck off n die!!

i feel sooooooooooooooooooooo much better now,should i say

how shagged am i.how fagged and knackered. and yet i still go thru this shit

stab me NOW!!let me die!!

good bye world.

i no longer see the beautiful side. i am sliding back into that dark little pit blanketed in darkness.
slit my wrist now!!NOW!!

btw thomas is a BISEXUAL for real AND hes a colourful wolf!!HE GROPED ME ARSE AND OGGLED AT MISCHA'S BOOBIES. IM SERIOUS. HAHAHAHAHA and he gave kenneth a ***

HAHAHA

WILL UPLOAD PHOTOS SOON!!

...pooofss..**

in a mask

2007-02-17T23:40:00.000+08:00

hi everyone
today is my birthday i like to blog last minutely
like only 30mins later, my birthday would be over. and im now typing in total blurness.i cant see a single shit.
thats because im doig a facial mask and i cant wear my spects. so that explains it all.
anyways i wanna thank everyone who have wished me. as for those who didnt.go to hell
haha just kidding

everyone is just too busy with cny preparations

i love the ice cream cake which made me shit the flower which is turning black already. the shu uemura eye shadow the ppg game book the calvin klein make up pouch and the hot picture of me!! haha ok la nt hot.

n yup had a great great time out with my lovely ytd.

i think thats all for now

i have yet to decide what to wear tmr. i bought another pair of red hot patent heels today. fucking cheap only 30bucx

anyways

i gtg now

i cant wait to slip ino my GUESS and DAVID BITTON outfits. hahahaha

see ya people have a prosperous year ahead.
i just updated my other blog too

www.mistressofglam.blogspot.com

click it!!!RAWR

..pooffs*

how disappointing

2007-02-14T23:03:00.000+08:00

yes my birthday is approaching so damn soon im turning a year older. 19 sounds bloody old. i cant stand it.

today is valentines. may all of u be surrounded with love.well im not.or at least i dun feel so.

lets take a look at my wishlist this year:

that basket guess bag. the $139 one

i m still in love with the guess shades.seriously.

the red guess top i spotted last week at paragon guess

for my sales at www.mistressofglam.blogspot.com to prosper like no there's no tommorow.haha

want a nice drop shoulder top.didnt get the rose one coz there was defects and thus the seller have to return it to the supplier

desperately in need of a pair of jeans.most preferred for a pair from david bitton. btw im size 26-27- 27 for smaller cuttings.

i so wanna braid my hair. if somebody can sponsor 100bucx i'd defintely go for it.

free sushi and salmon all year round from either sakae or genki

and perhaps an already planned proper date or dinner by someone special.

or a planned surprise birthday party planned by frens?

i really have no more ideas.my birthday so happen to fall on cny eve.so just my luck!i dun get to celebrate with frens!but many many ang baos shall fly into my endless pit of bags n bags.hahaha

im so sick and tired. WAIT is all i can describe bout life. everyone is born to die. we are all now just awaiting death. its a fact dun tel me its nt auspicious so say such stuff because its the TRUTH.

fuck off world.good bye

i hate myself

i haven done any work i cant find the mood or inpiration. im feeling pissed disappointed proud stupid smart n irritated. what a mess queena what a mess.

wait and die.

...pooofs...**

weirdly

2007-02-01T02:28:00.000+08:00

Weirdly i just can't seem to fall asleep
i've been losing sleep lately, probably because i am very SUPER DUPER ULTRA sensitive to sounds LITTLE LITTLE SOUNDS it disturbs my sleep and then........i get a banging headache after that (reminds me of the soundaholic ad of sony ericcson)

im tired really tired
im sick really sick
my nose was bleeding like it was a well of blood and mucus

i was so bored on monday i watched girls out loud and read xia xue's blog
people are just not satisfied with whatever they have, she is not that ugly after all. her nose doesnt look so bad.in fact the nose job was not neccessary!aiyo. but oh wells people tend to be happier with things when they think its what they want and they wil want it for life forever n ever.just how desperate

anyways i have a blog shop too but i haven been updating it since monday. too lazy to make anymore new earrings to sell. but i wil soon for valentine's day, just a little venture for some extra cash and of course my interest. was really inspired upon looking at people's master pieces. what a pity that iam not in jewellery design.

iam going to mail out two more items tmr and hopefully the third one if the kind lady could reply my email faster with her address.so that i can save on my journey to the always forever and ever so packed post office. hah but hey thanks to these honest buyers, i felt encouraged that after all i am pretty multi talented...hmmm o.O

anyways planning for quite some bit for my lil online shop. gonna buy some fabric n make some simple pouches and bags etc. a way to release some stress. a form of motivation and perhaps a new hobby.

i think for a noob its pretty good already that i manage to get these amount of buyers on weekdays within lyk three days? oh and i think i forgot to add in that there alr sold items.hah!!and plus the fact that people actually linked me. *happy* and am featured too being awarded 4stars!!****

wells my creations may not be as great as some others but its for sure different!

for now im dying from insomnia and the lack of love. money and love crisis!!oh and health too

its been days since i saw the love of my life!!
terrible didn't that sound?
it did, to me at least.
the mischevious hugs of love and affection,
miss giving or give missing
i am longing.

all right i hope i can fall asleep once my head hits the pillow because i feel sleepy but usually i CANT FALL ASLEEP.BLOODY FUCK

...ppoooffs..**

ps. i bought a skirt for only $56 dollars today at suntec.i like it!

www.mistressofglam.blogspot.com
visit all right!!

SICK

2007-01-27T14:14:00.000+08:00

hi everyone
yes im finally updating

im still sick after one week. after that night at zouk last sat.

how sickening can this be?

oh god please stop doing this to me. ITS RUINING MY LIFE!!!

im so sick i feel like chopping my nose off and breathe only with my ears.

this sucks

for the past few days was my sch's open house. YES NAFA OPEN HOUSE. super crowded and noisy and some lessons were cancelled coz of it.

well everyone listen up!!join NAFA!!!IF!!

you wan free entry to sentosa once a year with foam party and games and pageants(sch sports day)

eye candy of celebrity emcees such as randall tan and some girl la

skip lessons because of events

print expensive work loads and yet you might stil fail. (well usually this dun ALWAYS happen la but mayb once in a blue blue moon)

IF u still think the school is not EATING your money. here:

see UGLY COSPLAYS.

DISGUSTING CNs who speaks like as if the sch is a FISH MARKET.

THEN you can JOIN US at NAFA.

but besides all that the lecurers r nice. except for some lyk PEK.WHOSE NOSE IS UP IN THE CLOUDS.full of himself.HUGE fucker.but besides all that hes pretty nice.i made progress and the school does have quite some bit of opportunities for u to fly to places lyk london korea japan australia mongolia cambodia etc to do charity work!!haha just kidding.

all right enough of those shitloads
im tired im sick im so sick

damn it

...poooffss..**

hatred

2007-01-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

what's the most important thing in my life?

my life

im too lazy to post any photos or works or whatever

no mood

today was pure lazing at home

...pooofsss..**

assessment blues

2007-01-11T03:31:00.000+08:00

i miss you my dear bed.
i only came to realise how important you are in my life.
i have been neglecting you too much
are you angry?
i didn't mean to throw in those cold lonely nights,
i had no choice.
im sorry my dear!
i promise to make it up like
RIGHT NOW.

good night everyone haha

rude little bitch

..poooffss*

photos

2007-01-06T01:27:00.000+08:00

hello hello.

as promised pictures.

this was taken on regulars christmas gathering. gin n i.

the girls. wency me gin

my weird looking trex son(amos) and his hot mother(me)
haha

that's me. i think i look weird. my nose looks too sharp. not a very good angle.

that's us haunting borders. at 2am O.O and amos claimed that i was digging my arm pit as he was the one who took the bloody photo. the truth is i wasnt it just happened so tt my hand was there. i was just purely adjusting my shirt, or perhaps my bra. but DEFEINTLY NOT DIGGING MY ARM PIT U SICK PERVERTS.

christmas eve with honey. a blur pic of me

pictures of us

ok these are taken on YH's sisters wedding.

wency and i

that's gin and i

these are taken on new year's eve. went drinking.

i think our eyebrows are almost equally thick. HAHA!! mayb mine's tidier coz i pluck it into shape when i feel like it. very often laziness gets the better of me.

these are taken on the 3rd.

that's all for now, here's one of vince's favoourite photo. the green selfridge top he got me. (:

i need a tan badly. before cny!! (no tanning studio pls) it reminds me of final destination. freaky.

all right that's all for now.

im tired from all the school work and shitloads i get from everyone. yes you including you.

but my submission was good today, was not rejected. thank goodness.

all the photos above had no photoshopping, editting or what so ever done to it. its original so u're feasting your eyes on the real me. LOL

ok la in actual fact i was too lazy to do anythiing bout it. despite the fact that some of those pictures r a little too dark. =P

....pooffs..**

6th

2007-01-03T23:46:00.000+08:00

im here to throw in a short entry, as its still the beginning of year 2007.

happy new year everyone!! i have yet to upload any photos from christmas to new year to our 6th month which is today. luckily im not too late!! its not 12am yet

hah

all right i've got lots n lots of work to do, so off i am to complete that pile of dung.

...poofss..**

new yrs eve

2006-12-31T19:14:00.000+08:00

i am here to post the last entry of 2006.

this marks the end of a not so wonderful year but still great, its new years eve. i am again stuck at home.

going out soon perhaps

i hope nothing's ruined again.

christmas was fine received some unpredicted presents that surprised me and dinner wasnt too bad

i'l post the pictures up soon.

...poofss..**

wat

2006-12-21T16:07:00.000+08:00

what else do i want for christmas?

a nice vintage or antique jewellery box to contain all my earings necklaces rings braceltes n stuff

one which has many compartments and hooks perhaps to hang so that all the accessories wont tangle up which is ultra irritating if u didnt know

wat else... boohoo i couldnt find the guess shades anymore! boohooooohooooo

but oh wells. its ok no matter how much i love it ,its gone!!!

oh oh wat else i want a scarf the thin ones in terms of its width. so go casually with some of my clothes.

wat else i dunno la haha

wells time really flies its gonna our 6th month very soon.

all right ive completed my dpm now its time to do the presentation board for tt asshole. its not easy coz i got no pictures. DAMN

...poofffss*

photographs

2006-12-14T12:49:00.000+08:00

im so bored

i was suppose to wake up early this morn to do my Ad but oh wells...i can forget bout it. i will do it later when i come home i guess. and i have not started for my presentation board AT ALL.

so dead la how am i suppose to finish all these shits. i hate kurtis. he sucks. my christmas wish is for him to lose all those left overs on his already balding head.

anyways ive decided tp upload some photos in comparison of mid this yr til now.

haha

how freaky is that . mid this year

october. amos my dear son mr t-rex dick

novemeber. mischa's birthday. spot me amongst all the hot babes of my class. haha

now now spot me again!its easy.coz im hot!! HAHAHa

this is the latest!! i think just two weeks ago.with my classamte mikko.

that all for now...hope u had a good time feasting your eyes on me. HAHAH

so full of shit

...poofss..*

christmas mood gone

2006-12-13T00:16:00.000+08:00

im now in the midst of doing work

i miss vince

i have been busy doing christmas preparations and work

its killing me i need to buy something for myself!!!!!!!!!!!!

i spotted this pair of shades at GUESS. 112 aft discount should i buy?ive even got the serial no.!!so sincere right Giu6275 blk-3

then also some tops there in the sales rack or some new arrivals which are lyk less then 90bucx!? im so itching to buy can

n of course i spotted some guess bag thinking of whether or not should i buy. wells...hmmm o.O

besides all those, i guess i cant think of anything else i want for christmas mayb a nice dress

or some shawl necklaces bikinis mp3 digi cam

i cant think im tired i hate to do work

gtg now ppl

btw im size S-M if u wanna get me clothes..it depends if its american size its S or size 8. normal is bout M. HAHAH

...ppooofs...*

im sick and tired

2006-12-03T15:23:00.000+08:00

im sick again. just how many times must i fall sick in a bloody year? i really hate it.

lifes been so boring. mundane chores clouds my brain everday n weekend. sometimes i even forgot that its the weekend and i dun have to rush for work anymore. i hate school seriously..

im so tired now, sick too, lonely with no one to talk to....boo hoo~!

hah christmas is coming, n yes i picked a different name this year for our regulars annual christmas gathering! hah

but we have yet to decide when to hold it. how ironic. wells wency lost her phone last night and manage to get it back despite it was alr lyk 3am -.- how lucky is that!!

wells ytd was fun, we had dinner at the smelly n stuffy sakae at wheelock together with their bad service, and then went to cushions and cue pool bar (yh's sis bar rem?) for some card games and chillout session followed by pool of course. played one game with wency n hah i won!! after which we were all too engrossed in the photohunt game that everyone closed the table. hahaha just because its got naked girls showing boobies!!! -.- boys...how shallow. haha but it was fun upon hearing those comments. hmm

i wonder who got me for christmas this year, haha we re-drew n re-drew for lyk a bloody 5 times!!! how irritating was that. goodness. just because i kept getting kelvin, i cant find a damn size for him la!lol same problem as last year. but oh wells aft so many rounds i finally got satisfied with the picks. i wonder what i'd get this year. i have no idea wat i want either. i'll sleep on it again before exposing it here. heh

oh wells looking back i got a bikini from yh last yr and a pair of terrapins(is that how u spell them?) the year before which has already developed into tortoises bigger then the size of my palm. its gonna be two yrs n they're still alive!!amazing isnt it!ive nvr kept anything tt lives in the water for so long before. haha kenneth ur frens r strong!!! haha n hmm i cant rem what else i got alr la small small things.

ok i guess tts all for now, i need a nap. sick people are suppose to sleep more u know.

but dd is all that is in my head. so much work to do!!

oh oh i cant miss out on this bastard couple.
went to chinatown ytd to get some fabric with my grandma for my dress. n there was this shop, which is well renovated looking nice n clean out of all the other shops. wat terrible service. u think we've got no money to buy ur cheapo looking fabric which u claim to be from italy n paris? screw off, the material is so thin, i bet it'll tear after putting it on you coz ure so fat n ugly n there're too much oil and pimples covering u bitch. n shouldn't have went back in wit the magazine i took the first time i went in. if its for sale pls put a tag there or smth u put it there like as if its some free magazine lyk juice or what so ever in the boutiques u see in town n who would be so stupid right?of course ppl would get a misconception!i wonder where they hid their brains perhaps not in the skull maybe in their rectum or smth n shitted it out without even knowing. n the designs r fugly!so old fashioned. its lyk the clothes u see those models on demo tv at departmental stalls wear. get the picture? n one mag costs $250goodness. n they dun even attend to the customers properly. they act lyk they're the upper class, for goodness sake. how rich can u get if u dress lyk some old ah lian n beng?with fake gold chains that jingles lyk the door bells, with attitude lyk that. no one will ever patronize u. n the stupid magazines r not even half sold. that explains everything.with a book that looks $3 instead of 250.

see now government? ppl in the service line are still not bucking up. even tho they run their own business they have no manners at all. talking bout better service n the stupid fugly courtesy lion? go kiss my doggie's bum la. these ppl just dun get the message form the ministry of watsoever department despite the fact that our educator tried so hard to portray the right message. hey n this dun only apply to the old beng n lian couple who speaks terrible broken english. it applies to those who gave terrible service to us customers who are always right.

hah oh tt was so bitchy and mean

anyways gtg now for my nap.

btw kelvin tan zhi hong u stil owe me money!!!basket!

....pooofsss..**

that sting

2006-12-01T00:07:00.000+08:00

im feeling that strawberry sting in my throat, its forcing its way out, it pierces thru my eyes and the acid poured.

how weird is that.

perhaps its just girls.

btw kurtis should burn in hell, n sorry i didnt state the full name. ive got more brains then anyone of u. BAHAHAH

btw my new obsessed word is "hantuu teh teh" AHAHAHAHHA oh kenneth u make me laugh my arse off.

u lame dirty piece of shit. hahahaha

....pooofss*

giving it up

2006-11-19T12:08:00.000+08:00

i practiced my trumpet ytd, yes my dear old mr T. still playable and nothing flew out of it. nothing lyk any insects or watever crawled out of the case either. my lips get so tired easily now. lyk after half an hour of playing i get tired alr. gosh, i feel so old!! ugh but i managed a grade 5 piece for my sis.demo ok. she suck big time. ahaha

its been some time since i last updated as well, ive nothing much to feed to my blog anyways, life is so monotonous besides the fact that the only few interesting things are - i get to go out n chill all the same. shopping with frens n my sugar malt (haha sounds so sweet)

got some new stuff of course but my shopping list is nt yet complete hopefully later i can with my mom.

right, so one of the latest issue, bush was in singapore n if i'm nt wrong he's alr left, coz of him theres jams everywhere anywhere i go and aiya dont know la why kick such a big fuss out of it. its president bush!! yes of course a good thing for singapore. i somewhat was hoping to see him in town or smth.. ah haha

apparently our dear mischa is warded again, so we shall all go visit her on certain days. it doesnt feel good to be in the hospital alone. really.

tts all i guess i dont know what to blog about. i just blogged because.. i felt like it altho my mind is blank.

...poofs..*

make it up to me.

2006-11-05T22:04:00.000+08:00

hi everyone. its been so long since i last put up an entry.wow im blogging again!!

hahaha wtf such a cliche n stupid start off line. like some 14yr old blogger. o sorry is a shallow with zero depth kinda blogger. just very disgusted by such things so pls dun be offended if ure one of them. u just need to grow up tts all.

all right lets start with my holidays today is suposedly the last day, but as usual, theres no school on mondays so i have tmr free.

apparently, my holiday have been pretty much of a bore. went out wit classmates a couple of times. wells lets see we celebrated miss mischa gorgeous's birthday together at fish n co with a cute waitor. haha lika thought he was cute!!

n then hmmm we went for a picnic just this thursday. it was nt bad. there were goose birds duck watever la. haha n then of course we visited the well known swan lake n saw the all so gorgeous swan which wowed everyone. haha i think the older pair died. they used to swim together in pairs. now this one is smaller n its rather lonely. coz theres two more but seems much smaller lingering on their sad little island. haha seriously, i know my classmates have nvr seen the swans before because they were so assured that the goose was fucking ugly. haha and the goose is actually quite friendly although it asks for food daringly and we didnt give coz the food that we all had were more like poison to them. hah

wells botanical gardens is a pretty nice place. we played our classic heartattack the classic way as well...but luckily the cards didnt tear. hah

n then hmmm went out with my honey ytd for dinner at fish n co again with that same cute waitor... haha honey thinks he stutters whenever he speaks to me..but i think its bullshit la he just speaks lyk tt la ok. or maybe he really thinks im hot..woohoo...hahaha ok im just kidding i know im hot but still...*shy*

ok enough bullshit

why did you fall off the fucking damn bicycle my love?
yes shattered my heart was,
blank was my mind and so was our conversation .
i was in such a state that all i could give was silence
but when emotions form into little clouds
the clouds seemed to contain so much,
that it started to drizzle

wells, i have so many photos to upload i dunno which to go first. so another time ppl.

btw i watched deathnote i think two weeks ago?i cant rem either. the arts direct is not even impressive n 'L' is not cute. so ladies pls dun just think hes cute coz he acts weird. he is nt even shockingly weird la. neither was kira, kira looks so out of shape. puffy face. gosh. but the storyline is supposingly to be very twisted n complicated and also good. so yeap. if you wanna talk bout weird. ive seen many more weirder ones. hah all right

pooofss...**

i dont care even if you are disfigured u know? hah(:

u didnt know all the ways tt i love u....

2006-10-23T23:31:00.000+08:00

im currently still talking to amos and he is still going on and on about his gigantic t-rex toothpick dick that was suppose to spring out of his pants when he unzips it, hit my face and then i'd faint. but apparently it hasnt taken place in reality of course. it was all in his little dreamland.

anyhows i finished baking today a smaller portion.

the holiday haven been really fruitful besides the fact that i have been wasting myself watching dvd go out sometimes til pretty late then go home and get scoldings, wasting money on shopping, and then of course spending quality time with my darling boyfriend at his place every now and then (:

although sometimes i get really pissed with him, i still manage to tell myself tt its ok ppl makes mistakes and sometimes i m really too much, ive been pmsing apparently. hah

wells so far we had a class bbq at mios place n the pictures looked horrible so i aint gonna post it,if u wanna see it.. u can see it at likas blog. n then a chill out session with the girls a couple of nights ago. ****s rocks!!! ahaha fucking funny i tel u and then hmmmm celebrated gin n amos's birthday together too n i dun look too horrible in the pictues so i decided to post it. i specially got gin n amos gifts personally. after all they're my all time buddy u know. thru thick n thin shits. how amazing we're still surviving after all the shit talks. oh n i went out a few other days too..but yeah cant exactly rem wat i did n where i went. haha

btw yh's sister ( i forgot her name) haha has a very nice pool bar at tanjong pagar. we can go drinking there n chill soon some day.

ok i think tts all ive been cutting all the crap n getting to the point so yeap here u go.......feast ur eyes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the birthday cake which we all dug in with our forks without a plate.

the girls and i . of course the birthday gurl in the middle

group hug! hah

riah n i . i look rather naked. -.- haha

my boring son amos. the t-rex toothpick. hahaha (i look naked again!!!)

all rights tts all for now ppl...........my holidays ending so pls ask me out b4 its too late!!hahahaha

...pooffss...**

i said NO

2006-10-05T13:51:00.000+08:00

exams r over assessments over everything is!!!WOHOOO FREEDOM!!!joy to the world queena is totally free from school!!! she can spend as time as she wants with her darling sugar teddy and go out have some fun. have her night life back!!! BUT

sighh my mom wants me to get a freelance job somewher la sickening. im so sick of doing work can!? give me a break..

hah all right tts all i have to announce to the entire world.

don't know what else to blog bout anymore.

love- peace out

....poofss..*

liar liar liar

2006-09-28T22:12:00.000+08:00

liar liar pants on fire

you all bastards are just fucking liars.

im gonna explode, i cant fight it no more

i hate this feeling inside of me.

i need something stable to hold on to- for reassurance, security and encouragment. but i just dun seem to get any. the best pillar is always myself. i myself. i depend on my own for emotional support and everything else.

i get upset but who knows. perhaps god, and myself

its all about ME

myself Queena chan, the queen of her own world. her failing kingdom, frail petals and the flame is in the midst of beng extinguished, everything seems to be failing her, her weak body which just doesnt wanna shit. she needs to take a break. shes perhaps better off alone, for being such a bitch.

nothing is helping at all...nothing is helping me.nobody no one..nothing.souless, and the air seems to be getting so thin i can hardly breathe. save me? no one can.

sickening sickening

just how GREAT can life get. wheres the old me with all the excitement and joy. ive turned into a ugly bitch because of school work. I HATE IT. i suck. so damn happy ha ha

im just so fucking random today

GO TO HELL SUCKERS

i hate this feeling inside. i need to vent it, somewher somehow. maybe i just have to contain it further until one day, u find me in hell.

good bye.

i see stars

2006-09-13T18:55:00.000+08:00

i hate it i really do

i aint feelin good at all.emotionally physically or mentally.

im gonna faint from low blood pressure and mal-nutrition very soon

i wake up feelin lyk shit giddy and all flustered up.is there anything that can make me feel better?no.NOTHING.

i hate periods. suck me dry.

i hate school

i haven done a single shit for tmr, i may just collapse onto the fucking ground anytime soon and just die.

somebody save me!!!!

dead worried

pms bitch.

...pooofffsss....**

i gave it some thought

2006-09-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

i always cherished moments when i get to laze in bed under dim lights relaxing with you next to me, cuddling and giving me warmth
forgetting the world and everything else, only seeing each other

i always loved relaxing, lying down on the bed talkin to you bout every other thing til the break of dawn.

very often we allow the insecured side out without knowing by saying nasty things bout the other. to assure ourselves that nothing would rekindle or anything good would happen. but that only shows that you do not have enough confidence that you have forgotten that person or that you are better off then him/her. you're afraid to be nice to to him or her because you are afraid that things might change, you might fall back into that dark deep little pit again.

does that just sounded familiar?

...poofss..*

i love life but i hate sch

2006-09-11T21:07:00.000+08:00

i hate schooooooollll!!!

so much work to do. its suffocating me!!!!!!

i hate to do illustrator GOSH. it hurts the eye n my!its such a waste of time!!! grrr

oh btw happy 911!!!!!gin has turned 18!!!! joy to the world!!!soon my son is gonna turn 18 and we can do many things legally together from then on!.hmmm o.O
besides that, a moment of silence pls for the innocent lives lost in that horrible terrorists irresponsible act

rights. i think im pretty anxious bout darkroom tmr. i wondered how mich and i did for our photography taking today. hope it went well...at least better then the ones we took b4. and of course hopefully there'd be some good shots. i prayyyyyy**!!

we went to kampong bahru to take pictures of those ancient peranakan houses and the train station. hah cool huh. i also cant exactly remember how we came up with that place seriously.but yeah i know that area well, i studied there for bout 3years after all! ahaha and it was good exercise!!we sweated like pigs and we were red like tomatoes. even a packet of ribena tasted like heaven under the weather...but then..... suddenly!vroom vroom it rained. MAN!!! i HATE the weather.... sucked totally. but luckily we finished the last few frames before the downpour broke out.

but yeah we had quite some fun invading into people's property. haha trespassing i would say coz the damn back door was open!!!!but not bad the guy who came out was pretty hunkish haha n he had a pretty manly voice. haha n he looked mixed. but yeah lucky us!! besides that we poked our fingers eyes cameras into ppl's windows.those rich assholes who lives in those beautiful houses...i want!!!it was all so pretty!!even the inside!!

haha

yeapp n oh yeah honey gave me nicey nice purple roses for our 2nd month...awwww so sweet right???((:

i photoshopped it a little coz the lighting was bad so here it is (hey its really purple i just darkened it :p)

oh n el made tt for me. so nice right!!

that's all for now. i miss my sugar teddy)): although he spends half the time sleeping usually but yeah i stil love him! (the plant is starting to smell baddddd) gagagoogooo***

loves..

..poooffss..**

i pamper myself more hten u do

2006-09-04T00:54:00.000+08:00

very often my entry's title which cannot be seen here r very emo and it doesnt tally with my posts at all. hah

sometimes stupid

today supposingly the third of sept is the 2nd month of being together

there were some ups n downssss within this period of time
lyk a rollercoaster ride. would we be able to hold on tight as ever not allowing each other to fall?

rights enough of those emo shitloads

lifes been sucky school work's been piling on but obviously i haven done much of it.hah the usual same old me. queena!!wake up!!pls wake up!!!
mich said i was in my own world. hahaha

so bored now, sugar teddy went fishing somewhere at jurong. in the middle of night with lots of ppl whom i do not know of course. when his body is alr giving way.. he needs proper tender loving care.but neither of us has that much of time to offer..meeting him for dinner tmr tho.

went back to bm on thurs in regard of teachers day it was pretty all right saw many old faces. the same old teachers n many new ones of course young n energetic lyk how once some of those old ones r now. haha and of course witnessing the growth of bitches and lil sluts. of course mr kok and mr kho's problems were discussed. those who could've helped mr kho, helped by signing some doc. lets just pray to god for him, hes been a nice promising young teacher!

besides all that happened

life has been boring as ever, nothing much. nothing new besides kicking some dirty habits

im need love excessively now. ok toodles ppl

pooofss..**

im sorry but its true youre bringin on the heartache

2006-08-19T13:32:00.000+08:00

taking all the best of of me.you've got the best of me cant you see,bringing on the heartache..

just felt like listening to an old old song hah

went shopping ytd n i only realised that i alr spent like hundred plus after spending -.-

rights i think im no longer pmsing and i feel good

today supposingly i wanted to do the stupid comic sketch shit and dengue fever but i just cant seem to settle down. i meant my mind. i still feel so restless. ideas fluctuate and its only the second week of school and there's so much work to do alr. this is the stage where we have to squeeze our brains for ideas and concepts. hate it. when im already so freaking tired. just how dreadful can life get

nvm i guess i shall go do SOON.and i think earlier on when i woke up at 12 i heard flight of the bumble bees form my neighbour's house. shes my sisters piano teacher btw. hah n she looks like a witch

anyways i guess tts all for now. im bored i cant htink.

i wanna go out and have fun. i miss having late nights, i miss my nightlife.

loves

...ppooofss*

pms machine

2006-08-16T21:13:00.000+08:00

PMS MACHINE

yes i am one or issit because im just plain unhappy about things surrounding me?
i feel irritated frustrated fucked up and sometimes hurt for i don't know what,
i get so pissed i feel like crying and i yearned for someone there for me to hug.
but very often there isn't anyone,

i don't know why i feel that way sometimes.
my life shakes, like how a baseball is thrown through a window shattering the glass onto the floor into uncountable pieces.

maybe its just me, the all time pms machine according to my friends. as i look at the passing time and many strangers that walks pass me everyday on the streets on this pathetic dot on the map, i feel so minimal that even if i die, it wouldn't make a big difference to anyone.

i feel so sick, physically. ive been down with this stupid cold for days. i just cant recover fast ever since fell really ill last year. im so sick of my life, it doesnt have a purpose sometimes. i see the dead end only,i see the negative and darkness. i don't seem to see light or feel blessed anymore.

been talking to my dear son, whose jacket has been abused by me till today for keeping my peitite build warm everyday. thank you amos. i love u(: and a big thank you. u r just always there for me, see u this week to go shopping!

i haven been feeling well, for the past few days dearie and i haven been doing very well either.
i look out of the window sometimes and my mind wanders off, many questions were thrown at me i don't know from where though. i feel empty, emptiness seemingly eats me up half the time these days. unsure of the path i picked.

i know you've been trying your best to put up with me, so have i. im sorry. if this is what it takes, its tiring. ive just been in my most foul mood ever, i detest almost everything around me. i feel so sick and queasy and yet you stil threw those shit loads at me. thank you.

so much

a girl can be very understanding but not to some extent. im tired.

tts all for now.

i love long rides with you, breakfast and just plain having fun. i hate school

poofs..*

just what is wrong with me

2006-08-01T12:47:00.000+08:00

YES!
JOY TO THE WORLD!!ASSESSMENT'S ALL OVER!!n i made it through all even my advertising which i initially thought i screwed up coz i just did it anyhowly hah

well done bitch u shall work harder.HAHA ok tt was crap since when i make THAT happen.
after these two weeks of torturous and excurciating nights without sleep i manage to complete all my work and TADAH!!!here i am now!!hah lifes good lifes good.breathe in the sweet sweet love around as it surrounds....freedom!

all right i yearn to shop!now i can finally FINALLY SHOP IN PEACE joy and laughter. haha

so i need cash i need ideas i need time i need many more things.all these elements contributes quite alot u know for what i planned to do the next couple of days

wells ytd was cool, freezing my ass off in the rain n then the rat called to see if i could pick him up coz there were 20other ppl snatching cab with him!!haha luckily i was stil at home. hah lucky rat n then after sch i sent him too -.- while i headed down to vince' place.wells its all the same district. i was being nice (:

right.

lets talk bout the sp band concert i attended on sat. i seirously think their standard dropped the best section performance was a total disgrace altho yes their tone wasnt too bad even in such a dry convention centre but omg i heard many many shu mei!!!!*freaks out in horror* ahahha but yeah overall i preferred the IBM last yr. noahs ark begining sounded good but later it got a little messy
the last two japanese composer songs were the best laaa haha i liked them. the more decent song out of the entire repertoire. philipe spark's music for a festival was nt bad, used to be one of my favourite songs. ya but anyhows we got kelvin tan a biggg sunflower!haha i aint gonna expose how much issit.confidential!

AND YES TO MY HORROR I REALISED THAT I LOST MY EZ LINK CARD WHEN WE WERE GETTING OUT OF SP.GRRRR. fuck it .

but watever now i have to waste the money to go make a bloody new one.KILL ME LA PLS.

all right enough bout that ezlink shit. im gonna survive on coins for the time being. grr
and yes!today im meeting up with gin to go shopping and mayb catch a movie hah (:

they met in fantasy and soon it vanished when the air got thin.

loves.

....poofs..**

my sypmtoms killin me

2006-07-29T00:38:00.001+08:00

i need my drug.

yes you.

my drug to keep me sane and alive

im so tired i haven been sleeping for the last 46hrs?ya i took a 2hrs nap this morning

haha and something funny to cheer the day up and such, mich had the no.4 replay today and she sat right INTO the bush! haha

so yes the banana got pushed INTO the bush because the turtle pushed her first and then the rat gave the final killer push.and O.O the banana was IN.hah

im so tired you tire me out
yes you r stil patronizing me at times.leaving with me no room for air

i sometimes do not know what im doing.
i need sometihing to hit me hard n make me forget these same old sick queasy feeling tt makes the inside of me churn.

god tel me pls?

i miss dearie hes working til morning. im tired im gonna go sleep now.

good night.

does the sweet sweet love breathing stil surrounds

...poofs..

dear dearie. watever u said hit me. pretty hard. i dun really feel hurt but just uneasy.why?

2006-07-22T00:11:00.000+08:00

yes ive finally got the fucking time to sit in front of my lappy to put up an entry. a pretty decent one i'd gurantee. instead of sitting in front of my lappy tryin to finish up all my fucking school work which is taking up MOST, in fact more then three quarter of my time these days. i hardly even took naps only maybe ytd?usually i work til 430 am and then head to bed and sleep totally NOT peacefully wake up the next day go to school stone joke laugh around laugh at bushes and replays. HAHHA and yes i got one of the replays today -.- the spider fell into the damn bush because the rat pushed her. grr.

all rights. enough.

i have the urge to write agian. emotions are fluctuating inside me alot now..and so...yeah..

i remember how you used to complain how hard it was to decipher whatever i had to say through smses and my blog entries because i didn't like to use puncuation marks. i was pure lazy. but i learn and i have now. ive changed. i don't think you realised it nor cared. neither would you be reading this.but wells, maybe some day you might. who knows? im tired. leave me alone, stop haunting me.

today after school i had to go home grab some cash and go get my contact lenses done. it costs me 60bucx in total plus the saline and stuff after discount. so yes i feel the pinch. passed refat the shirts in the morning. thank god dearie accompanied me or else i have no idea how was i able to lug those 35shirts with me all the way from bmc to ps. seriously. haha thnks sweetie(:

n dearie was very sweet to offer his company to go have my lenses done and so i accepted his offer!and had dinner at chinatown too. of course spent some quality time together. its been some time since ive spent time with him. coz of school.really really suck. really, i mean SUCK.

right.

how i wish i could just create a stampede and kill all the work load i have now.
throw them all away, burn them with fire of anger, frustration and tears, free myself from this mess that i have now in life. entwine myself verdantly still to you. be in your strong and secured arms. believing little-ly in the ugliness the world has to drown me in. choosing to just induldge in those moments. have the same faith i used to have and live in assurance. i wish we could just live in the garden of eden. with no interference, you can fish every other day you like. i can just sit there and watch you with eyes only for you.
the innocence of natural beauty with no facades nor filth. the filth that drenched us all now even though we may never realise it ever, has it ever occur to you? is the purity still there?the purity and peace a dove used to symbolise to me. for it acted like a knife sharper then agony sliting my throat and veins, snapping them. allowing blood to spill and stain the sheets of love. thrusting messily into my heart disfunctioning my entire body and releasing my soul out to nowhere. drifitng to the middle of nowhere to the middle of my frustrated fears. sometimes i wish i could feed on morphins, for you to stop patronizing my space of pain. please stop it now. leave me alone pessimist.

is its existance still with me?

no.
it is no longer there. for a bullet did a hit one of the doves through the flock, and thats ME.

but i guess i manage to find someone to remove that bullet and stop me from bleeding.

loves.

i heart you (:vince pince wince !

...poofss..*